Nikki's blog: "Passion"

While you cry on the floor I hear the pain and agony in your sobs.Im speechless completely at a loss for words my mind has gone blank for all my thoughts and memories just disappear.I cant stand to look at you like this i cant stand to look at what you have become  I turn my back to you so i cant see your bloody tears drip to the cold wood floors.I cant stand to look at the gashing wound in front of me i cant look at you while you die. You cry and beg me to explain myself you ask "Why are you doing this?Why are you doing this to me?" I have no answer,No feeling,No Justification for what has been done.I am ashamed of myself ,I am ashamed of my crimes. I once loved you,I once carried you upon my chest but no more for the burden is too great of a weight to carry with me anymore.I loved you once long ago,I cared for you once long ago but no more for we are not the same people we once were,we are not the same people we set out to be after high school .We are now empty shells of the lovers we once were,we are now soulless and lost with the many other empty hearts that go through life just drifting by.Your sobs have ceased,your breathing is minimal,your heart beats at a slower pace and you die alone and empty.You die without love,without friendship and you die without me.I made you into the soulless creature you became,I made you in the heartless man you once were I gave you love and took it away but no more shall you endure the pain i have forsaken upon you, for now you shallow grave you. No longer  do you exist,no more do you breathe,no more do you love, no more does your heart beat.I murdered you slowly and destroyed your heart and soul. I had you,i loved you and i killed you there shall be no more victims.