There's this guy...that i realy lyk...but he broke my heart...n now its in pieces...i had feelings for him...he said he had feelings 2...n told me everything n all of it sounded so good...it was lyk a fairy tale...but in tha end all he did was hurt me...he said he was guna wait 4 me...but he lied...he never told me he had a gurl...he said he didnt kno it wuld hurt me this much...he didnt tell me he had a gurl...i found out on my own...i've learned 2 NEVER CATCH FEELINGS 4 SUM ONE...THEY WILL BREAK YOUR HEART...and thats true...i got feelings 4 him..n all he did was hurt me...i'm still mad at him...but wat can i do...hes got a gurl...he dont care bout me...hes 2 busy with every one else...2 worry bout me...i fell 4 everything he told me...it hurts so much...he made me feel loved...tha way wanted 2...i didnt fall in Love...but i did do sumthin...4 it 2 hurt as much as it did...i felt sick i got a head ache...and it hurts 2 kno he has a gurl...he asked me if i wanted him 2 break up with her...inside i wanted 2 say yes...but i knew he probably wanted 2 be with her n she probably wanted 2 be with him...so i said no...i didnt tell him tha feelings i have 4 him...i couldnt...so i stayed mad at him...and i still am...i'm mad at tha fact that i cant be with him and that hes with her...but i kno i cant do nething bout it....now i have 2 face it...i dont kno if i can talk 2 him lyk i use 2...since hes got a gurl now...but thats lyfe 4 u...its never easy...lyfes always guna be hard...Love hurts so much...but sum one told me that..love isnt suppose 2 hurt...but it always hurts me...and i dont kno y...i kno i cant be with him...everything he has told me i still think bout everything...it all seemed so real...i cant help but cry sum tymes...cuz he hurt me soo much...i felt lyk i culd tell him ne thing n everything...but iono now...i mean i can still tell him things...but its not tha same now...nuthn is tha same between us now...hes gotta gurl so hes worried bout her...not me...that nite i could't explain how i felt...i felt lyk my heart was tookin away from me....lyk i never had a heart...i even cried...i didnt want 2...but it jus happened...we havent known each other very long but its been long enuff...4 me 2 catch feelings...everything was great then...but now its not..its changed its different...n i dont kno if i can deal with it...i mean i want him 2 be happy...but i jus cant see him with her...i dont kno y...i jus cant...he keeps tellin me hes sorry n everything...but its hard 2 believe him...i mean i want 2 but i jus cant believe him all tha way...he lied 2 me...he never told me that they where on n off...he told me they where broke up...he didnt say nething bout on & off but i guess i'll get through it....but iono how...i'm jus so confused rite now..i jus wish i was 18 already...so i wuldnt have 2 worry...n i culd be with him...but i got 4 more years 2 go...i wish it was sonner but its not guna be sonner...i mean i can go 4 years without a guy...cuz i dont need sum one...i jus wana feel loved...n i dont feel loved by my family...so i turn 2 others...but i do got friends who love me...so i can do it...and i dont need a boyfriend...i mean its nice...but i dont need 1...i'm happy bein single...but i kno he cant go 4 years without a gurl...even if we made a bet...he sill couldnt do it...but jus tha thought of him with her makes me sick 2 my stomach...i dont kno y...but it jus does...its hurts...it hurts so much....n wats worse is that he dont kno how i feel bout him...he jus thinks i lyk him n have feelings 4 him...but its more then that...i'll tell him 1 day...but iono...i mean tellin him now is not a good idea...since hes got a gurl...n everything...but ita always guna hurt..2 see him wth her...i think wat bothers me is that...i told him wat i thought bout her...n then he goes n dates her...so thats half tha reason...n tha other reason is that i make 1st impressions on every one...n iono i jus dont lyk her 4 sum reason...but in 4 years he culd be happily with sum gurl...or married...n its guna be hard...n everything...iono how i'ma get thourgh it...i jus dont kno...but i kno he can do better then her...i wana see him happy...jus not with her...iono y...i jus wish i knew y...n y i feel lyk this..n y i got these feelings 4 him....but i got them...n i cant get rid or them....no matter how hard i try...and i mite as well say it...she aint lookin lyk nuthn...lyk i told him...my cousin looks better then her n shes only 8 years old...but i mean he let me down...but i'm use 2 it...every body else in my lyfe does...so its no different now..then it use 2 be or shuld i say...still is
