Draco's blog: "Health"

Today at 2:40 pm est I will be seeing a lung specialist...They are gonna "try" and figure out what is wrong with me....10 bucks say they don't have a damn clue either...I'm ready to give up

Ok I'm a little late on posting an update had some stuff I had to deal with...Ok after spending an hour or two with this other heart dr i seen he thinks it might be my lungs..maybe some blockage or even clots so he wants me to see a lung specialist to see what is going on...But recently I recieved a phone call from the one heart specialist before this one and he wants me to do another hour and some change car ride so they can do all kinds of blood work and x-rays...he believes it can still be my heart and also my lungs....So my question is how am I suppose to sleep at night not to worry about my health when these high paying morons have no damn clue what to do? Damn I would kill for a bottle of Jack Daniels right about now...I will do a better update after my appointment on the 18th of april

Today at 1pm est i get an EKG (ecokardiogram)done and ay 1:30 pm est I see another specialist about my health....Hopefully they will know whats wrong with me....I'm tired of sitting around wondering wtf is wrong

On the 27th of March I had an appointment with the dr that put in the heart valve..After 5 and a half hours of tests they found out there is nothing wrong with the valve.That means I am fucked because they have no idea whats wrong with me.....On the 28th of March I got a phone call from them setting me up with another appointment with another DR doing an EKG and seeing this Dr as well. I guess I should feel better that they are doing everything in their power to figure why I am so sick.But the thing I hate is the waiting game...Some of you will be like "Good things come to those who wait"...I been waiting since September of 06'...So I am a lil tired of waiting..I just want to get better and move on witgh whats left of my life and enjoy playing with my kids again...I miss that more then working or anything else....Seeing the enjoyment in their eyes that Daddy was playing with them or rough housing with them or chasing them...If your a parent you seen this look and enjoy it all the time...I want that back again

I finally got my heart specialist to call me back i have been feeling like shit all week and he thinks its one of two things.1.pnemonia (i'm sure i fucked up on the selling) or my heart rate drop so badly that it is what is causing me to have problems and if that is the case i will have the surgery on monday..I am leaving here soon as my ride gets here...I don't ask for much but if you believe in a god pray that i will be alright for my kids thank you Draco

Would anyone really give a shit if i put a bullet through my head...i'm so fucking sick and tired of being sick and tired...i want this fucking operations to be done with by now so i can get my fucking life back and not be home all the fucking time

I just came in from seeing the Dr....They are gonna put in a pace maker to help my hear beat at a normal rate which the hope will help the valve that is messed up...The surgery will be in 2 weeks or so and after a couple of months if it didn't help they will replace the valve and still keep the pacemaker in me..I just did a shit load of blood work and piss in a cup and did X-rays as well so as soon as they get the results of them and get the team together to figure out which pacemaker will be the best for me they will tell me a date I would like to thank everyone for supporting me and always asking if i am ok...i would like to give a special thank you to my best friend...dawn if it wasn't for you being here for me all these years i would have gone nuts this past year...so for that i thank you and love ya for being a great friend BLESSED BE

I feel like shit and hurting and people tell me i'm gonna be fine...I wish once just once people can feel how i feel for a few minutes and know what i truely go through on a daily basis... I know people mean no harm by saying that...it just gets to me at times and it makes me feel i will never get better....BLESSED BE