Beautiful Angel SupportTheTroops's blog: "he is leaving for iraq"

don't go don't leave i don't want the pain i need you here i need you with me you'r the best thing that has ever happened to me you help me through most that my ex did you asked to go cause you said i hurt you you said it was the only thing left you said that i only want you cause you are leaving i want you cause i love you i don't want you to go because i love you yet you are going and you are trying to make me hate you but i don't hate you i love you you are saying things to hurt me to make me stay away to make my goodbye less hard but it just makes it worse cause all the pain you are putting me in now is nothing that i haven't felt befor so just to let you know you can't make me hate you cause i love you

he is not gone... he is not forgotten he is not in war yet... but soon he will be he wants to go he wants to fight he wants to keep the ones he loves safe while they sleep at night he wants to due the job he was ment to do.... but i don't want him to go i want him to stay i want to tell him how i really feel but i am not going to cause having another person i love going off to war... is just to hard on me i can deal with the pain really i can i can deal with the saddness of not having them here i can deal with the fact that they are not home due to their job what i cant deal with is the fact that i might get heartbroken once more war changes people for the worst i don't want him to change... but he will so thats the thing i can't deal with they all say they wont change but they all do and i can't live with that anymore i love him i do i really really do but i don't want him to go.... but i know that he can't stay... so my goodbye is going to be hard something i dont want to do but something that must be done...