Must I look forward to being haunted every day for the rest of my life by the good and bad memories of my love Gus?
I ran into an old friend from high school recently who I discovered is also a widow.
She asked me how long since I'd been widowed and my reply was "2 years, 2 months and 3 days."
She looked taken aback and said "Oh wow, it's only been a little over a year for me...but I couldn't tell you to the day how long it's been."
I can't possibly know what her life and love and marriage were like, but I know how much I lost when this universe took MY man from me, and I STILL want to punch a big jagged hole in it for taking him from my side, and from my arms and from my bed.
There remains however two places from which I believe no powers of this universe or the next can ever wrest his memory from and that is my Heart and my Soul. He has always been a part of me, and he always will be. Even tho I haven't felt his flesh in two years two months and five days now, I STILL feel his love, and that is both a comfort and a source of immeasurable grief to me.
