Why does life have to be so difficult... I have so many major life choices to make and I'm so confused.... why does it have to be so painful??? Why do people who claim to love you hurt you? My mind is going stir crazy!! Pain pills would make it all end, but that is the cop out way....I'm pissed, I'm hurt, I'm numb, I'm anxious, I'm excited, I'm scared, and so many other feelings going through me right now. I am just so torn and don't know what to do. If I stay, we just make each other miserable and don't know how to be happy... If I leave, I start all over again and struggle fiancially and try to be happy..... plus my daughter is leaving this afternoon.... moving 18 hours away from me....we've never been apart... don't know if I can handle it. I know I need to let go, but I'm not ready for all this!!!

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I haven't been online much lately... been trying to deal with some very disturbing issues at home. I dont' want my friends to think I am abandoning them though.. I still luv ya all, just trying to get my head straight and figure out what I'm going to do.

I passed the complete riding course.. woohoo!1 I got a 100 on my written test! I can now take my completion card down to the DMV and get my motorcycle endorsement.. whew.......

Well, I passed the riding portion of the motorcycle class!! woohoo!! I am VERY sore though. I have muscles hurt that I never knew I had...If someone were to tell me that I could do a figure 8 in a box, I would have laughed at them, but I did it... I did go out of the lines some, but I did it and that's all that matters to me. Tomorrow night is the written portion, but I don't think I will have a problem with that!! I never knew riding a motorcycle was so hard and that you really have think about your movements!! I don't care if I ever ride a bike, but the fact that I CAN do it is all I need.. lol.

Well, I survived Thursday night's class.. today was the riding portion, then class work this afternoon... I have the clutch control all worked out, but my problem is my hands are too weak to keep working the clutch, and I'm afraid to go fast.. LOL... I'm still in the class (if you can't complete the exercises, they ask you to leave) so I guess I"m doing okay. Tomorrow is the rest of the class and the evaluation and I know if I don't speed up, I won't pass... but that is ok, at least I can say I tried it....My hands are little and the clutch is hard to pull, so I think with practice, I could do it, but I don't think I"m all that excited to OWN a bike.. LOL.....I do have a souvenier though... I was in a curve and I accidently applied front brake while turning and of course, the bike went straight down!! I didn't go down with it, it just slipped down, but it did break the turn signal cover.. and I have the broken piece as my souvenier.. lol.....I was so worried about dropping the bike, so I got that out of the way early... haven't dropped it since... this is alot harder than I expected and my hand is real sore and has a blister already... so I'm not sure what tomorrow will bring, but either way, at least I tried it... Pass or fail! But I can say that I DID ride a motorcycle and did serveral exercises on it without dropping it... I'll let you know how tomorrow goes!!

What happened to all my comments.. they are all GONE!!