This is my first blog but i had to get some shit off my chest. 4 years ago on Christmas i lost my son to a rare condition and i have no idea 4 years after to deal with it. I have tried to move on but every time this time of the year comes around i cant help but think about it and go into a very deep depression and i have people telling me that they know how i feel? Then i get madd and ask them "Have you ever lost a child?" and 98% of the time its no so how the fuck how can they know how i feel if they dont know the heartbreak and loss that i have had 2002 was the worst year of my life #1 I had to put my grandmother in the ground (the most important person in my life ) on my birthday #2 My baby boy passes on Christmas day #3 I had to have a funeral for my baby boy on new year eve, all my most favorite holidays and now they are all ruined. The only question i have to the lord is what did i do to deserve this pain?
