So ive spent the past 10 years or so goofing off when i should have been studying and out partying and i should be resting up for work, quiting job after job dropped out of college twice, and just totally irrisponsible. I even ended up losing the man i was going to marry over my imaturity. For the longest time i didnt know what i wanted to do with my life. i was quite content going out and just getting shitfaced and popping pills and not having a care in the world about anything but me. Now thatim ready to settle down and start a family im thousands of dollars in debt, and working at walmart. But i suppose things could be worse, and they have been, so i am just thankful that i have begun to see the light.. and speaking of the light, last night it just occured to me what i want to do... what i want to be "when i grow up" so, i am looking into bartending school as well as nursing school. its a mix between 2 things i love.. drinking and helping people. lol
So, if anyone has gone to school for either one of these, advice of any kind would be greatly appreciated. as far as love and settling down, as my ex told me last night, i have to be happy with myself before i can truely be happy with anyone else... and hes right, just like he always is, so im going back into what i call "me-mode" and im doing things for me for once. this also means i'll have to look deep inside myself and figure out what it is that will truely make me happy... but once i figure it out, watch out...
