For those that happen to read this, I am going to explain what is going on and would like for you to give me your honest opion as to what you think I should do.
I have known a special women for the past 16 years which we have been very close. Through out these past 16 years, we have had times of no communication because of each other's life where she has had various boyfriends and for some reason during this time when she has hit rock bottom, we would cross paths, and we would start to talk like we have never lost communication. I have loved this women for all of these years and until recently since she has been single, finely told her how I have felt for her. In her mind, she did not believe me and has not believed any of her guy friend for these past years when they told her that they seen that I was in love with her. Her comment to them is he does not and that is just the way he is. This women is a single parent with a 15 year old daughter. Since I found out 1 year ago that she would be living on the street, I opened my home to her and her daughter so that she would not be living on the street.
Since she has been living in my house she is achieving her own goals of going back to school to get her accounting degree and sees that her life is turing around because of someone that is willing to stand behind her and emotionally support her while she is not working due to the economic situation we are all in. During this time she has truely found out how I feel about her and she is emotionally running and found a new boyfriend which she will be moving in with even though she says under her breath that this relationship will not work and for her piece of mind she has to give this guy one last chance.
I am the type of person that will not burn bridges even though I am hurt and going through depression due to me not being giving a chance to make her totally happy even though she is happy here in my house due to not having stress even though she is not working, she knows her daughter is safe and is in good health.
I know many of you I personnally do not know since this is done through the internet and that the only way one can get to know someone is if they type in these blog areas or through private email. One does not know if the pictures posted are correct cause anyone can create a salute put a name on it and have another identity for online communications. But I am honestly who I say I am and all of the pictures are of me. I am one that strives to gain trust and respect from anyone who I meet and will not do anything to have someone not trust me. So I am asking you if you read this, can you give me suggestions as to what you would do if you were in my shoes. I know that at one time you might have been in my shoes in your own life and what did you do to overcome this.
Thanks for taking the time to read this and possible comment on this. If you have any questions please ask them as I can really use some friends at this point in my life. I have always been behind the computer screen for my who life so when I break out of my shell and try something new, it is really devistation when something like this happens.
