God gave me an answer!
This blog was written Sunday, April 8, 2007.
Ever since February 9th, I have been doing a lot of praying about what to do with my live and my marriage. I want to do the right thing in the eyes of God. I also want to do what I feel is right in my logical ming and my emotional heart.
I have had a real delema. I thought that in my situation it was wrong to do what is happening right now in my marriage. I was really upset because I thought I was doing wrong in the eyes of God. I had consulted my Bible and found verses like the following:
1 Corinthians 7:10&11 To the married I , the Lord, give this command: A wife must not separate from her husband. But if she does, she must remain unmarried or else be reconciled to her husband. And a husband must not divorce his wife.
Which basically says that if I get divorced that I must remain single for the rest of my life. Not having any romantic relationships and not having any children. The thought of this sent me into tears. Then I read further and found the following:
1 Corinthians 7:12-16 If anyone has a wife who is not a believer and she is willing to live with him, he must not divorce her. And if a woman has a husband who is not a believer and he is willing to live with her, she must not divorce him. For the unbelieving hsuband has been sanctified through his believing wife, and the unbelieving wife has been sanctified through her believing husband. Otherwise our children would be unclean, but as it is, they are holy. But if the unbeliever leaves, let him do so. A believing man or woman is not bound in such circumstances; God has called us to live in peace. How do you know, wife, whether you will save your husband? Or, how do you know, husband, whether you will save your wife?
Which basically says that it is okay for Josh to leave me. In the eyes of God, I don't have to live alone for the rest of my life! I can get married and have children! I am so thankful that God has finally answered my prayers. I am so happy to finally have the answer to my delema. Praise the Lord!
