Tuesday is the big day..I have my surgery. It's not major or anything but it is more involved than what it was going to be. I know it will be fine but I am still nervous. I also have mixed feelings about it. This is really the end of the road as far as having a baby. Don't get me wrong, I am totally done trying that. I went through more pain, physically and mentally, than most women would allow themselves to go through. Sometimes I think about what all I did and it amazes me that I put myself through some of it. Never did anything affect me the way fertility did. UGH! I did get pregnant and I know one was a girl. I named her, grieved for her and kept her memory. That is all I can do and it is enough. I guess in some small way I was a mother..even for a very short time. But that part of my life is over now. I am ready to move on and be healthy as well. This crap I go through 3 weeks out of every month has to end and I am ready. So enough babbling..lol.
Please think of me and if you are in that mind, please say some prayers.
Love ya all.
S.
