Greg,
I’ve been thinking and I have much to say to you now, whereas I didn’t care to say much at all to you when you first contacted me. All I’ve ever felt for you was anger, bitterness and resentment. For ever meeting you, and for allowing you to be in my life for the very short time you were. Forgiveness is not something that comes easy for me, but is something I’ve been working on because being unforgiving lets you hold too much inside and all that negative can eat you from within without it ever being realized. And only now after almost 6 years have I realized it. Wait lets get technical, actually it’s been almost 25 years.
First I’d like to back track to when we parted ways. Jeff told me that you knew of, and saw the explicit photos of myself. I was pissed and felt my privacy was invaded. He told me that you set it up on the computer that anything I received, also maybe even sent as well, you could see. So I decided I was going to stop that set up. And while doing that I peeked around in your business. Which was rationally offensive and embarrassing, no? Indeed! I never had any intention of sharing information with anyone. Not until I had a very interesting conversation with Jeff, and then Chandra. Conversations where I found out what a fraud, liar, and all around sicko you where. The things you tried to expose of myself I had already told Chandra and my mom so as to explain why I looked in your account. But I told them the TRUTH. Those pictures were not taken on your bed. They were taken at Alex’s house right before I left California, which is why he was emailing them to me. And yes, there were ones taken on the cam, what can I say, I kept up sexual affairs I had been having in California. So what, they weren’t seeing anything they hadn’t seen in real life already. And anything else you may have found, I don’t remember and I think you lied about it because I never remembered the other things you had talked about. But what business was it of yours anyway?? But what REALLY got me was what a hypocrite you were! I can almost laugh about it now. You so easily turned everything around on me. How is it okay for you to invade my privacy, share it with Jeff and it not be okay for me to invade yours and tell Chandra? If not for you invading my privacy, I would have never even thought to look at your account, I had no interest to.
Greg Jan. 2004 - "Kori, why have you done this? You showed Chandra old pictures of me, looked around on my PC, meddled in my life. WHY? Every email you went and received, every picture you downloaded from your camera, every picture you downloaded from the net, were all put in a file…"
How paradoxical! IIII should have been asking YOU that question. Why did YOU meddle in MY life? What made YOU think YOU had any business in MY personal affairs? TOTALLY hypocritical. AND, as my biological father, after the first picture, why would you continue to LOOK? Disgusting! When I was looking through your shit, seeing the young naked girls was one thing, but as soon as I saw you, that was it, I was done looking. Which is what any ORDINARY person would do.
Jan. 2004 - "But did I show these to anyone, did I use them against you some way? No, I did not!"
No you didn’t. But just the fact that you saw them, and continued to see them, was enough. All I could think of was how SICK you were. You may not have shown them, but why on earth did you think it was okay for you to see them in the first place?! I was 18 years old, and at that point you had been in my life for 15 months out of those 18 years. Did you think you were gonna play daddy? Too little too late buddy. What I did was my business and my business alone, none of yours. Jeff told me about you lying about your age to girls online, getting them to send you naked pictures. He said that you liked them the younger the better. So already a pervert, why was I so surprised you saw me, and kept up the access to see me? Sick, just sick. On your yahoo messenger I spoke to a girl that said she was 18, said that you and her had been talking since she was 16. She thought you were in your early 20’s. When she was 16 you told her that you had just graduated high school and were going into the Navy. How surprised she was to find out that none of that was true. That she was talking to your 18 year old daughter and you were really in your 40’s. And oh the things that were in your message history…LIES all lies.
But, I don’t regret a thing that happened with you and I. In fact, I realized that I should be thankful and not resentful or angry. Not only was it actually a good thing you not being in my life growing up, that whole thing made me realize how much alike we were. Which disgusted me enough to want to change, because I don’t want to be a thing like you. And of course I became a better person because of it. I moved, finished school, got a job, and am now back in school and working. I have a nice car, nice place, great kids, and soon to have a better job when I’m done with school. All done without you in my life. But for the brief time you were I’m thankful, no longer bitter. Because I saw in you everything I didn’t want to be, but saw myself becoming, and did a 180. So thank you, and I forgive you. I think that was the only purpose you were meant to serve in my life, after helping to conceive me of course. I don’t miss you, rarely think about you, and don’t regret anything that happened then to make us now estranged. The father I had growing up was in no way perfect, but was a better man then you will ever be. HE is my dad, though still far from perfect, and you will always be Greg. That guy I once met that disappointed and sickened me with the man he really was.
Jan. 2004 - "Kori, my actions years ago ensured that we have no past….Your actions in the present have ensured that we have no future…..You have screwed up something that could have been very good for you and for Gordon. If you are wondering what I am referring to, it’s a relationship with me that is no longer, it was your choice, and you made it."
No Greg, it was YOUR actions, YOUR choice, and YOUR loss. Again, I thank you.
