its not fair. they go and give you all this hope, but then they expect you to do things that if you could do in the first place, you wouldn't take such drastic measures to lose weight in the first place. fuck it! i'll be fat and miserable til i dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
*update...12-10-07
so here i am 4 months and 5 clinic visits later to find out i am no longer a candidate for surgery because of the severity of my goddamn mother fucking depression and need to find more intensive therapy.?!?!? WTF??? like i havent tried that for the past 2 years!!! and, im depressed because im soooo fat. im fat because im depressed. back to square fucking 1 !!!
