"When one tugs at a single thing in nature, he finds it attached to >the rest of the world." ---John Muir-->
I have been asked more than once, "what I am looking for and to tell more about the inner me, what makes me...ME ! ",...well here is a few of the answers,...
I am seeking to find MY Zchivago.
I don't adhere to the "dating game"...I have no car,no job and few friends, so I spend most of my time at home, finding ways to best 'Spend' my time..Using the internet to keep abreast of what is going on in the world around me...and keeping in tune to the wave of popular topics, effecting or impressing society as a whole as well as current events, happening around the world...Dull ? Maybe... but it is my life for now, so I make the best of it...
As to family I have my Mother , a sister (Polio survivor, a Forever Baby)who lives with my mother... A brother , whom I DO NOT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH...& thru his efforts I have two nephews, whom I have only gotten to know one, Clearly by events occurring that left no other options...& we hit it off beautifully, He likes his 'Auntie', as he calls me...MUCH to my brothers dismay...Longer story to be related in person one day...
Now My Pride,
I have three daughters, 32, 23,and 20 between the youngest and oldest I have 6 grandkids, four boys and two girls, They call me "Nanna"...so I have yet Another title...lol.
Through a series of events over the past few years my life has turned into a mere
existence...waiting to discover where I fit in, to have a Real life worth waking up to each day, with a Smile on my face... and YES, hoping for my one true love to show up and give me back what has been missing... Happiness of heart & Reason to be me... Him knowing I am 'The' missing half of his life as he is to mine...yes, my Zchivago...
When we meet, we will know, it will be as if we knew each other from a time past & just lost track of each other, like we were apart, yet still together, the years and lives around us will take their place and we will be One, In every facet of our being... I know he is out there...as he knows I am here...Both Waiting Patiently to reconnect our lives...
Guess to most, this seems foolish or naive. But it is what keeps me striving forward and enduring whatever comes along in the journey to where he and I will reunite and create a world, all our own, with the combining of families and lives, of the mixing of beliefs and sharing of passions and dreams and goals...In this we will be building a life of sheer happiness that neither has known for quiet awhile...and through it we will be the envy of all for we will have something solid, meaningful and filled with the greatest love known to mankind..."Unconditional, Undying ,& Unadulterated Lust filled Love" and with it comes Pride and Respect, Faith and Belief in all that is good...being within our reach...Two can conquer all, better than one alone...
I am trying so very hard to keep this at arms lenght and light... But Honestly, I am in awe of the Possibility of MAYBE, finding My Zchivago...The 'ONE' Will have most of his qualities...For now I am seeking friends First,& should I find more, I welcome the opportunity to take the time and make the effort to discover everything about you...See IF you have any of his qualities and I am anxious to find out what others you might also have ...And Yes, I am rambling trying to cover all the subjects I can and not wanting to leave anything out...an Impossible task...at Best...LOL
Like my profile, where I was trying to keep it simple and yet revealing, I know of many things I omitted, Yet, I am open and Honest to a Fault...I deal best when dealing with Truths and Facts,...a Fact is the Only thing that no-one can argue with...and Truth always wins out ... I see NO excuse for lying or playing head or heart games...they are a WASTE ... of time, effort and energy as well as emotion...All of which I choose NOT to waste...
I rather being taking photos of you enjoying games, as in Golf or Tennis or event Walking, with someone who challenges your ability... I can't compete in any of these but love to capture the memories on film or "Digital" ... But will join you in ... Swimming, shooting pool, throwing darts, even Bowling or Hunting sports, be it Archery or with Guns, altho I prefer Targets rather than Live game, except when 'shooting' with a camera... Yes, out of practice with most activities but willing to give it my best effort...
Aw, now to the Bottom Line ... You Only have to reach across the Eye World and grab my attention and IF Lady Fate deems it worth our time, we will become friends and Possibly more ...now I am sitting here struggling with the urge to say I've covered the main subjects But Know I am far from covering them all, Let's get acquainted and see IF we have what it requaires to be more than just as friends ...I know I have it within me to give such love with all the passion within my soul...But We need to meet face to face first...I just hope I will fine the one who takes the time to know me and except me, as well as love me as I am and be the man who takes my heart and gives it a place where it is cherished and kept in safety and nourished daily..as it is meant to be,to stay alive and healthy, as I will his... Oh well, Hope does flourish when Faith is within us...
It has been too long since anyone has done this...Many talk about it but refuse to act on their own words...in today's terms... they "Talk the Talk" but won't take a single step toward "Walking the Walk"...I have met my share of them online but they never show up when the time comes for us to meet face to face...Which Only shows me, it is Nothing I Did or Didn't do... Never got the chance...LOL
And for my Last comment...If you like cooking ...WE will have to share the Kitchen...I don't cook a meal...I create one...It has to Look good, Smell good & Taste good, for me to serve it...I have a great passion for cooking and baking, but enjoy sharing the art with my partner, so look forward to the meals you will prepare for me..NO ! ...for US ! ... Did I mention in my profile ...I am a firm believer in , "Us, We & Ours".... No room for anything else....
BTW, this makes TWO things I KNOW I am good at, since No man has ever left me for another woman and None have complained about my Cooking...LOL
Break time... need a fresh cup of coffee ...While I am gone ,you can read this again... slower and take deep breaths ever so often and then reply back to me here...you may have noticed the email address : ZsLara2005@yahoo.com
Yes, it is "Zchivago's Lara" , and was created in 2005 ...
Hoping this is not TOO deep, Just laying it out as it is...Hoping you reply in kind...Your Newest Friend, Lara aka Anna, aka Minx
