I will remember the day like it was my last.
I walked into church to see all my friends and family.
They were sitting there with sad faces.
Some crying. Some just talking with people round them.
I wasn't sure what they all were doing there that day.
I went up to talk to some of them.
But, it was like I wasn't there.
But, I was there. Right infront of them.
But, they just kept talking.
So I stood there and listened to them talk.
All the talk was about me.
And how my family was gonna get along.
I moved closer to the front of the church.
To see my wife and kids and their kids.
They were all dressed up. For what I didn't know.
As I looked at my wife and kids.
I noticed there was no seat open for me.
I still didn't understand what was going on.
So I just stood there beside my wife.
The service started.
I listened to the words of the pastor.
The words he spoke were bout me and my life.
About my personal journey through life.
And about my family.
I spoke out and asked "what does all this mean?"
There was no answer. So I walked up closer to the pastor.
And there I saw my answer right infront of me.
I saw a lot of flowers. To many to count.
So I started reading the cards.
I begin to cry because they all had my name on them to my family.
Then I noticed a casket in the middle of all the flowers.
Wiping the tears away I looked at the casket.
When I looked inside I began to cry even more.
I know this person in the casket.
It is me. I am beginning to understand now.
Then I see friends and family come to the front.
To say kind words about me. The service ends.
I watch them close the cover on the casket.
I begin to weep even more than before.
Because I know what comes next.
The long ride to my final resting place.
After an eternity I feel myself being lowered into the dark place.
But, I know this is not my last stop. There is a bright light.
And a man standing there waiting for me with his hand out.
He says it will be ok. So I take his hand and go with him.
To a place so glorious words can't explain.
I am at peace now. And I still watch over my family from here.
Wish I could be there with them in body and not just in spirit.
But, I am where I am to be and that is the place set for me. JLM
