So anyone who knows me knows that i have been hanging out with this guy since school started last year... well we finally decided to start being more than just friends without the label of dating. yeah it was a kinda friends with benefits thing. but anyways he wont date me because of what exs have done to him in the past and last night after we kinda got a little serious he told me that he wanted us to kinda chill for a little bit. basically he wants a break. i dont know what the fuck i am supposed to do.. i mean damn i fucking love him and he makes me so happy except when he pulls that shit. why cant life just be simple and just work out in my favor for once. i have told him so many times that all girls are not the same and that i am not his exs and he needs to give other girls a chance to prove that we are not all the same. and that i have been hurt so many times in my life trust me i think i have a tattoo on my back that says cheat on me, and lie to me. but anyways he says that he still wants to hang out, but its going to be 2 weeks before we get to because i am leaving for North Carolina and i am thinking that maybe this 2 weeks in North Carolina without seeing him is good for me and maybe he will realize that he will miss me and want me in his life as his girlfriend?!?!?!? just maybe! ERIN I NEED YOUR HELP!!! : (
