i know i'm a fucking loser and i threw away my life, whatever. but i'm sick of my family always throwing things in my face. all i wanted was to have a good day with them on the 4th, but NOOOO....it's not fucking possible is it? i'm fucking sick of this shit. i just want to move somewhere far away and never come back here ever again. i fucking hate it here. i'm really trying to get my life back in order after being in a really abusive marriage and getting out of there. that motherfucker put me in so much debt and my family helped me out alot, but does that give them the right to throw the shit in my face all the time? i'm just tired of everything. i'm tired of being the happy person and cheering everyone else up when they're down. people are so worried about their own problems, they have no clue that i'm fucking miserable. fuck it.
