fuck im so sick of everything this was suppossed to be one of the best years and some how with all the great things going on it sucks me asss so bad it aint even funny.....i had cancer and got rid of it but hey where was my support it sure as hell wasnt my husband but for maybee one day wooohoo fucking who but its sure as hell was my sister sher damn if not for that girl id be lost....now on that note damn her husband for taking her away from me he sucks and i want to kick his ass..she is the one person i can run to for anything and everything when i need to talk shes there when i dont shes there when i need a drink shes def there lol.shes one out of two ppl who make me see i am worth something and deserve shit she makes me feel i am a person and damn it i need her back....my husband right now i can exp[lain what the hell is goin on with him hes seems like a totaly diff person then i have ever know it makes me sad cause it feels like i am losing us and i dont know what to do.i go out of my way to make him happy ask anyone that knowsus but to him im like a distant memory in his mind like oh yeah i have a wife.....i cant force whats not there anymore no matter hoiw much i want to i cant make him do the things he tells me hes going to do i can on the other hand give him a wake up call and leave but i dont think he will notice unless hes hungry or wants sex so damn whats the point ok sorry bout the rant needed to just let it go helped a lil
