MsTrinityD of TrinityEntertainmentSvcs's blog: "FUBAR Stuff"

So I was doing some thinking this weekend, as I was laid up in bed on the 4th of july with a nasty cold and feeling like a$$.... and hoping Id feel ok to be getting my new tat on saturday (which everyone now knows I did ;)) and I came across this one thought. Of all the fubar friends I have, I have made a point to attempt to pursue real friendships with people who live near me here in San Diego. I have alot of ppl from san diego on my friends list here on Fubar.... Now, I personally don't see meeting people from the internet as Odd or out of the ordinary. My view of the internet is one of the potential this mechanism has to bring about people into my life that I would not normally be interacting with because of work schedules, places I travel to for work, places I feel comfortable going alone, and so on. Given I have lived in San Diego 8 years and I have yet to create a network of compadres here (I have worked as an IT consultant for 8 years and I'm on the road 100% of the time - meaning home occasional weekends) the internet just seems like a much better place to meet people, get the BS outta the way right away and move along to taking it offline. (as a side note, I tried the whole going to the club to try and make new friends because I love to dance and Id love to make friends with people who love to dance and like the same music i like. But very quickly I found that the mentality of most of the ppl at the club is to try and find someone to take home for the night.... not so much interested in those kinda Friends-with_benefits (lol)). My Internet "Frenz" don't seemingly feel the same way I do and thats fine and all.... but I guess in my thirst for knowledge and desire to interact with my fellow SanDiegans, I am puzzled at how the people I have met here (on fubar and other websites I interact on) treat the internet as seemingly unrealistic online gaming rather than the mechanism to connect with real people. I would just like to find a way via the internet that would allow for finding like minded people in close proximity to me who want to take our interactions from the internet to a real life meeting. Im not going to bite you know.... unless you ask me to nicely (giggles) *kttn*

Ah.... to my So Called Friends (giggles): I posted a status today "No Im not here to f*ck you!Go Figure!" and I watched the "total" number of friends on my list start to diminish. So I wonder how many people when they added me somehow thought... adding me as a friend, meant potential hook up? pffffffft *kttn*

I am concerned that someone might possibly use the passing of their infant grandson as a means to get points on Fubar? I mean, I know that it seems like a stretch to some degree but come on..... Happy Hours with the Baby's face, Now Spotlight all day... I guess I handle my mourning in a different way. Those who know me could send me their condolences but the passing of a loved one is truly not something to plaster all over the internet. It just makes me really sad. *kttn*

I say this every now and then; but Im saying it again today. I am SOOOO Over chat... and chat ppl and chat arguments and the inability of some ppl to actually relate to people on the internet in a HUMANE manner. This might be the internet (which is merely just another means of communication like phone, letters, face to face conversations, etc) but the people here... whether they act fake or act real... are real people. And real people deserve a certain amount of respect until they have proven themselves unworthy. Respect for their opinions and thoughts whether it jives with your own or not. Respect for them taking the time to communicate with you here when there are hundreds of other things they could be doing. Respect for the fact that they are trying to get to know you through a mechanism that isnt the easiest to work through or interpret through. Conversations here, can be as light hearted and comical as you want them to be or they can be the means in which you communicate your thoughts and opinions and feelings and unhappiness and discontent etc. to connect with your fellow man/woman kind. It takes great effort sometimes to have the conversations that are of the more meaningful sort. When the internet bridge isnt providing the smoothness of conversation that is usually allowed within face to face interaction.... why is it so hard to just say.... lets take this offline? If it matters enough... why are people so quick to think "This is just some internet person Im talking to, Im done!" Come on... you have spent weeks/months and sometimes years talking to this so called 'internet person' to piss it all away because the communication isnt flowing the way it has in the past. Are there not a multitude of situations and conditions that could be causing this one particular friendship ending conversation to go south? Are you not once in the heat of your misunderstanding and miscommunication wondering to yourself... "why arent we getting along today? we have gotten along for weeks/months/years and then now all of a sudden, the color of the sky is the most important thing to argue about" .... and to block the person from ever speaking to you again, and deleting you from their buddy list like they dont even know your favorite color and havent spent all day at work chatting with you when you were home on your day off. When does your chat friend lose their value as a person? And dont say they never had value.... thus they wouldnt be on your buddy list, chatting you up every other day and keeping you company online over the weeks/months/years that you have known them. They have value, they mean something... they mean more than some stupid argument over miscommunication and misunderstanding that your pride wont seem to allow you to let go of... I have been chatting for well over 22 years now. It started with 'mudding' in college and due to the gypsy like nature of how I live my life, it has been a useful tool in meeting new people in the many areas that I travel. Without the internet I would have been a traveling lost soul, without connections or ties to any city that I went to and without the experiences that I had that were made possible by my 'internet friends'. I value people. I value every person I have met or never met from the internet because all in all, they are people. People with unique personalities and personal traits all their own. They are colorful and fun and the interactions both good and bad in some instances have added to my life lessons. I would not be the person I am without the people I have had intertwined in my life via the internet. So to be discounted, as "some chic on the internet you pass the time with" or considered as some "white noise" that adds color to the day... is somewhat disconcerting considering the level of effort I put into the interactions I have. I cant tell you how to do what it is that you are going to do here, but it seems almost necessary to mention that why you might treat me like Im just some personality you generated on Sims Online and Im easy to disconnect, delete, etc. Im definitely more than that and its a shame that your lack of depth causes you not to be able to see that. *kttn*

I think I finally decided how to manage this family thing... its been tormenting me since I joined... Anyone in the family at this time (as i reorged the place today) is someone who has seen me nekked or wants to see me nekked and has an appointment to do so that's in my calendar ;) the top family members have seen me nekked IN PERSON. This way, I guess no one can get all butt hurt if I just dont let ppl see my family photos til we get to know one another. Sound fair? I guess Im open for suggestions cause I love MOST you guys!! (giggles) *kttn*

I feel like I need to write this in order to make it kinda clear about this whole family thing.... I guess I personally don't think anything about adding and deleting people casually from that list so that they can see my photos there... but I guess I really didn't think people would get all butt hurt over it and not talk to me after said removal. Sh*t... Ill add you back sometime if you want. Ill also let you know I don't really see me updating those pics anytime soon. Most ppl who have seen them don't rate them at all. the others... look and I guess I'm just thinking it doesn't matter if you stay on or not if you aren't consistently talking to me everyday or at least just consistently period. So.... Im just writing this to say.... I only get 20 family members. I add and delete casually so ppl I know can see the pics I have in my NSFW folder and its nothing against the person I removed. Ill add ya back if you like.... No Harm No Foul!!

I just had to write about this... cause it makes me sit at my desk and laugh so hard just thinking about it. (obviously Im easily amused) Mumms... are for attention whores. I am an attention whore. I post mumms. I post mumms 'cause I like the attention. I like it when people respond (god bless your little bored to death souls -giggles). It seems to me sometimes it's the only way ppl interact here if you aren't in a lounge (toooooooooo slowwwwwwwwww) or already a GODFATHER 'cause you have been here since 1989 (joke- insert laugh here). NONE of the stuff I have posted to date in a Mumm is anything of relevance. Come to think of it even my blogs are just sh*t going on my wickedly twisted little head (and NO my hair is not a perm you effin moron) I'm laughing my ass off that I'm actually having to state that for the masses, as it is assumed otherwise due to the inability to have "insert sarcasm here" button integrated into Fubar (Tom promises that it is coming!!). I would think that somehow.. its assumed, or a subliminal message that fubar is merely a f*ck off site, when you have nothing better to do (although it has brought me and my Crush hours of sh*t to talk about and laugh our a$$e$ off about). Back to the stuff I post though-- It's merely stuff that I sit here staring at Fubar wondering to myself on like day 16 of my membership here, cause there damn sure isn't anyone to ask that's not going to "trip" if you initiate a conversation with them thats real, with real content and thoughts ... and it's not "hey wanna f*ck" or... the like. (I actually had to block someone cause they went off on me cause I said something serious!!! OMG Hang her from the Gargoyles I say!! jesus, breath already) So I'm thinking that ppl responding to Mumms are............................................... (wait for it) Points Whores (different from attentions whores - n that they sit here commenting on Mumms all day to get the points)!!!! Their posts are completely irrelevant to the topic. Most of the posts are rude, crass, lude or just not necessary (spewing negativity is NOT a productive endeavor mind you-- sunshine and puppies and flowers yada yada). I was reading some of the comments on my ONE mumm (fu-crush for reference) that I posted to everyone yesterday and now I know why I wouldn't waste 5000 fubucks posting so that EVERYONE can respond. LOL 75% of the responses were just ppl being a$$e$ for lack of anything better to do. 10% was ppl saying "OMG you aren't serious are you?" (um.... yeah -- NO!! i wasn't serious geeeeeez) 10% was ppl commenting on other peoples comments that weren't even relevant to the non-serious topic of the mumm anyways. the last 5% actually gave nice, positive, humorous and interactive answers. That 5% are my friends (swoon). YOU GUYS ROCK!!!! You special bunch of ppl you! Much worship to you! *kttn*

I think I am butt hurt that people I checked out and asked to be my friends, go an check me out... dont rate me, dont add me, dont friend me. Thisis SURELY fu-rejection!!! lol

I am starting to think... after a few days here nonstop that this is the breeding ground for pervdom (which isnt so bad mind you- til it goes on and on and on for hours and days and such) and being a total d*ck (YOU know who ya are and what im talking about) What is it about the anonymity of the internet, that causes "normally" civilized people to turn into crass, inhumane, disrespectful, incoherent, ludicrous, asinine b*st*rds to people they dont even know? The Million Dollar question of the day!!! *kttn*

Hello all my friends from Ya hoo and elsewhere that have decided to join me at the online happy hour we lovingly call FU-Bar!!! I hope that you will do some of the following over the next week: -- Log in and hang out at least 5 days.... -- Post a picture of yourself or something else on your profile -- Post a Salute photo or 5 (if you need help with that, let me know) -- Send gifts -- Rate people -- Try to make some new friends -- Write blogs -- Post Mumms (make up my mind) -- And have a good time!!! Its good to have you here! I fu-love this place. *kttn*