I really dont like my place right now in my life. I hate being single, I want to be with someone that I can work for...not be a slave but strive to give something better than what they have.
After talking to Jav tonight I know that Im madly in love with my best friend but am too afraid to admit to it. I make comical, offhanded remarks to try to stray away from the conversation about "us". Its just that im so afraid of being rejected by her that I dont even want to attempt going for it. But he is right, I should go for it, shes worth it to me...
I joined a lounge last night...singles lounge (18+) Dont really think that Ill find someone in there, but the people are cool, especially the DJ there, she let me request the crappy songs that I love and dosnt complain...rose if your reading this YOU ROCK!
Ill prolly just dick arround on cherry some more than prolly go to bed...I need to stop stressin
