A True Independent Queen's blog: "From Tricklers Tongue"

You'll Never Know You'll never know the love i feel so deep and strong and true or of the times i speak your name when my heart is blue You'll not see the quiet tears that fall upon my cheeks for the time apart, from hours to days hours grown into long weeks The beachside walks, hand in hand with breezes on our face knowing that in you, i have found i'm in the perfect place You hold my arm and pull me close into your eyes i look without a word, you know my heart and you read me like a book Our gazes lock and penetrate we're lost together in time for now i know that i have found the love thats meant as ALL mine These moonlit nights we long to share and bask amid its glow its silver light upon your hair we are in love, oh yes, we know Our hopes and dreams will last so long as we both shall breathe that in time,look back we'll know this love we share and need No other love before or since has been so deep and true for all that love compares so pale to my love for you For all my life i have never found a love that fills me so i drink your kiss, your warm embrace and long to make love to you Consumed i am with love so great my heart beats its song for you "with you i want to know this love as no one else can do!" No words can speak or tell the tale this love i have for you you'll never know the love i feel so deep and strong and true But as i have breath, and a beating heart each day i live, i'll tell that i love you so much its true that forever i am in your spell

My Brother One bullet through his head but it must not have felt right because he's NOT dead Instead he tried to take it through the heart But God had different intentions from the start As the bullet rips through his skin I can only imagine how he felt within It's scary as hell, I had a dream just the night before The bullet coming out of the chamber is what I heard during the thunder of the storm I awoke sitting straight up in my bed But in my dream the bullet went through his head What's a person to do in the middle of the night Receiving a call like that Next all I can hear in my head is "Calling ALL Nurses STAT!!" I look at him laying like a lifeless soul Holding his right hand feeling so cold The person I am speaking of is the SON of my Father andMother My one and only flesh and blood This Man Is My Brother!! written on the same day my brother tried to commit suicide March 29, 2007

I sit here and talk to you on the phone Wishing you were here for me to hold In two different places Our lives going in two different paces You`re tired of being hurt And I`m tired of being trampled in the dirt How would it be if you were near Or together you and I were here My feelings getting harder to hide And it's killing me inside Not knowing what to do But sit and think of the things I wanna do to you Damn all the words I plan to say Never come out right, `cause different words always get in the way My emotions running deep, but a decision has to be made Should I tell you how I feel or continue to be afraid Afraid of what? Afraid I might run you away If I told you that you`re all I think about throughout my day You`ve brought me happiness and if you only knew Part of a fraction of what I feel for you

What Am I To Do??? I used to struggle to keep us between the lines But all you ever told me was lie after lie With you going in and out of jail You made the life of MY kids a living hell But now it seems I`m paying the price Because I always found myself being too nice So since then I have changed my ways I get stronger by the day "I want my Daddy" are the words I often hear Because of your actions MY kids may hate me, that`s my fear You only come around when it is convenient for you Time after time you have left me in a slew You gave ME two beautiful children that I wouldn`t trade for anything But it`s a damn shame that their Father can`t give them every thing They need the guidance of a man, that`s essential I thought a Father`s love was suppose to be unconditional Wow!! how could I be so blind and wrong But it makes me feel great `cause your kids watch as their Mother grows strong You remember that I`m rasing MY kids the best I can And when you lay your head down tonight be thinking of a way to explain how you always ran

I Know What Love Is I was forgotten Until you called my name Lost in the shadows Until you shined your light my way Now I believe again In all my dreams again I'm wide eyed and innocent Those doubting days Are so far away and oh I will fall And you will catch me always Time has taught me this I will fly And you'll be there to guide me Straight up to my hearts highest wish I feel you close to me And I know what love is Now there's no mountain Too high for me to climb No ocean so wide That I could not reach the other side Now I believe in me 'Cause you live and breath in me And nothing can come between We are one star No night can darken, oh I will fall And you will catch me always Time has taught me this I will fly And you'll be there to guide me Straight up to my hearts highest wish I feel you close to me And I know what love is It's an unspoken thing A quiet opening There's no words that can go that deep But I know I know I will fall And you will catch me always Time has taught me this I will fly And you'll be there to guide me Straight up to my hearts highest wish I feel you close to me And I know what love is

The Day I Saw My Lady Cry She stood there with her torch held high To watch planes falling from the sky As silver bullets ripped apart The center of her loving heart With disreguard of sanity In senseless act of lunacy She saw her children fall and cry The day I saw my lady cry. I LIFT MY LAMP..... so reads her plaque Just miles from the terrorist attack Her open doors now violated By pure evil orchestrated Hounds of Hell have been released And God must rise to kill the Beast I saw her head droop, shaking "Why?" The day I saw my lady cry. Her tears will bring on bitter rain Unleashing winds of hurricane To circle the globe in whirl wind force Uncover evil at it`s source Then seek exacting recompense From those that prey on innocents They`ll not forget, as time goes by The day they made my lady cry. Written by Stephanie B on 9/12/01

Love Me In That Way I barely know you yet I know you so well Can you explain to me Why my heart fell? Maybe it`s the way you talk just the thought of you being mine that made everything feel so utterly sublime But it`s always her that you talk about The mention of her name makes me want to shout "Why can`t you try to love me in that way?" Please give me just another day You tell me bout how you still love her and the thought of it ending it sometimes does occur And then you talk of hurt and pain and the aching inside of me I can`t explain I wish you could let me be the one who turns things around and bring something new I wish I had this power that she seems to contain She can make your sunshine she can make your rain You`re the that cut it off but you never let her go And even if I haven`t been through the same that it was bad for you I do know! I want to feel your arms around me the caress of your lips upon mine I want to feel your gentle touch I want my own sun to shine I wish you would give me the chance to show you what I can do -- What magical powers I may contain and make me the someone new But I`m like no one else you ever knew For me, it`s just one touch upon my heart in the wrong way that could be all too much I wish you`d let me know now how much I can take -- If it`s nothing, you must tell me For it will lessin my heart ache But if you are to give me your heart please tell me quick and true that you will be the one to ease my pain and in return I will love you the same

It Is Him It is him I speak to everyday It is him that brings a smile to my face It is him that makes me feel like I am somebody It is him that brings out the old me Maybe it is him to set my soul free Maybe it is him, so i can let this baggage go inside of me Maybe it is him I see every night in my dreams Maybe it is him that makes me weak in my knees It is him I hope to one day meet If this is him reading this please take a stand For it is time that I reach out and shake your hand

He Calls To Me He calls to me across the miles Night winds carry his whispers They float on the breeze and through my windows Falling gently upon my ears -Hush- I hear him now He calls to me from the Heavens Glittering stars cant compare to the sparkle in his eyes When he looks at me, I am consumed by the fire I see him now He calls to me through my dreams Dancing together in the shadows of my sleep Where we laugh and love once again I am in his arms I feel him now He calls to me Every moment of every day Distance couldn`t keep us apart When destiny drew us together I`ll hold him for eternity As long as he keeps calling

Daddy`s Little Girl Daddy Keep Shining Your Light On This World I Look Back At My Life And I`ll Always Be Daddy`s Little Girl I Can Remember Sitting With You In That Old Brown Reclining Chair I Can Remember The Two Of Us Together Getting A Perm In Our Hair I Can Remember The Kid In You, Always The First To Ride Our New Bikes I Can Remember you Always Teaching Me Wrong From Right When I Look Back At My Life It Seems I Did A Lot Of Wrong But Dad It Was You That Helped Me Grow And Stand Strong I Know At Times It Seems We Grow Apart But Dad I Always Hold You Close To My Heart As I Was Growing Up I Made Decisions That You Would Never Agree But Dad You Always Knew When To Take A Step Back And Let Me Be Me It Always Seems You Know When I`m Starting To Fall But Dad You Were There To Pick Me Up, So Again I Could Stand Tall With All These Words You See Are So True But Dad I`m So Thankful God Gave Me To You Daddy Keep Shining Your Light On This World And I`ll Continue To Be Daddy`s Little Girl