DR3iLiCiOUS MONST3R's blog: "from thy heart"

I sit here quietly and watch the sun set
Thinking of someone that I've never met
I wonder does he think of me too
Needless to say I am thinking of you

Wanting to hold you, to see your face
To take you away to a better place
You feel so right, too good to be true
I just can't stop thinking of you

My friends say that I might regret
Losing my heart to a guy I've not met
I say there is nothing I can do
I cannot help thinking of you

I believe you were made special for me
But wonder if that could possibly be
I'm tired of being so alone and blue
But I always smile when thinking of you

If that even matters how I care too much

Suffocating with every question asked

That even if I was there it will be the same

Just coz this is how my love lights its flame

~onemonster

I was once sad and lonely

Having nobody to comfort me

So I wore a mask that always smiled

To hide my feelings behind a lie

Before long

I had many friends

With my mask

I was one of them

But deep inside

I still felt empty

Like I was missing a part of me

Nobody could hear my cries at night

For I designed my mask to hide the lies

Nobody could see the pain I was feeling

For I designed my mask to be laughing

Behind all the smiles were the tears

And behind all the comfort were the fears

Everything you think you see

Wasn't everything there was to me

Day by day

I was slowly dying

I couldn't go on

There was something missing...

Until now I'm still searching

For the thing that'll stop my crying

For someone who'll erase my fears

For the person who'll wipe my tears

But till then I'll keep on smiling

Hiding behind this mask I'm wearing

Hoping one day I can smile...

Till then,

I'll be here.. waiting. 

This pain is taking its toll

But my love it never gets old

The trials and defeated emotions

Keeping me sane with magical potions

The heart that keeps my blood flowing

That pain that keeps me down but going

If the pain leaves and love stays

How would life be for me?

Would I have a hole in my heart

Where hurt and pain used to be?

Is there a way out of this...

Loving, painful, misery?

Is there a way in to this...

Love that I have failed or neglected to receive... Is this love?

Unconditionally loving you is...

Bringing me pain

But it keeps me sane because I have you...

Am I kidding myself?

Am I in denial that you love me back?

Am I just a dream away from reality?

Am I making believe that I love you? I

think not...

But pain keeps me going

My heart keeps my blood flowing

You keep my life glowing

love  keeps me believing

My calmness is showing

But my happiness is hiding

From pain and love

I unconditionally painfully love you ...

What have I to say to you
When we shall meet?
Yet—
I lie here thinking of you.

The stain of live
Is upon the world.
Yellow, yellow, yellow,
It eats into the leaves,
Smears with saffron
The horned branches that lean
Heavily
Against a smooth purple sky.

There is no light—
Only a honey-thick stain
That drips from leaf to leaf
And limb to limb
Spoiling the colours
Of the whole world.

I am alone.
The weight of love
Has buoyed me up
Till my head
Knocks against the sky.

See me!
My hair is dripping with nectar—
Starlings carry it
On their black wings.
See, at last
My arms and my hands
Are lying idle.

How can I tell
If I shall ever love you again
As I do now?

I remember the way
your eyes would light up
when you smiled
And the way you would laugh
it would make me laugh, too

I miss all those little things
about you

I remember how happiness
was just an ordinary feeling
It wasn’t something
that we wished for
It just happened everyday

I miss all those little things
that have somehow slipped away

But as time went on
and the years began to take their toll
we forgot the little things
that filled our hearts and our soul
and somehow it all disappeared

I miss all those little things
about us during our best years

Life can be hard and it can hurt
sometimes we do or say something
we never really meant
and before we can take it back
the pain has sunk in

I miss all those little things
about us;
the things that made us strong,
and made us promise this was forever
no matter what went wrong

If we can remember that love was ours
once upon at time
and let go of the tough years and heartache
and take a moment to rewind
I know whe can find the happiness
that used to fill our lives everyday.

Don't talk anymore my love
Just look at me
and you will understand
how I feel.
Look deep in my eyes
and you'll see your name,
my soul's broken mirror.
I love you more than you believe,
like you are my life,
my other half,
my subconscious guardian angel.

Always be happy
cause your smile is a source of life for me.
I breathe when you breathe.
But forgive me
for what I say.
I know you feel nothing.
For you I'm just a silly nobody

I'm sorry for my feelings
I swear I will leave you, 
my endless pain.
It's not your fault,
I can't blame you
it's me who loves you.
Tell me your truth
and you'll never see your name in my eyes again,
cause I'll keep my love
in the bottom of my heart
and I'll be gone...

i hope gone.

Pain oh pain go away!
Do not come back another day.
Tears falling down my face
Oh how I wish for his warm embrace.
Wonder if he cares about me.
Wonder if this is suppose to be.

How can he stand there and break my heart
How did we allow us to grow so far apart?
My dreams of us being happy is not going to come true
All I am feeling is down and blue.

Oh hell pain go away!
Bring me back to another day
Where he will love me and
say we were meant to be. 

I will not stop loving you that much is true
but I will be stronger in time 
and not feel so blue.
you will always be in my heart
even when we are apart.
One day I will have that warm embrace
and tears will stop flowing down my face.

Damn Pain pain fucking go away
leave me alone and do not stay.

Sometimes I wonder how I feel about you,

Scared of these feelings because it’s still new

I catch myself thinking of the best way to share,

Hoping you’ll return my confession showing you care

And then I catch myself again… and drag my thoughts back to reality

I am back at square one, does this just happen to me?

Poems can be so stupid I swear I would never do this

But this is YOU, and you aren’t like anyone I have met

How much longer do I have to write, can I tell you yet?

When I come back from my thoughts I feel more secure

But then I sleep… and the dreams of you occur
The dreams I have of you are so vivid and clear

I feel TRUE happiness inside and that there is nothing to fear

People say dreams have underlying meanings and not to ignore them

I say we both know what they mean and now I want you to hear

Hear what I am about to say to you, feel it with my body, see it in my face

Hear it in my words and tone when we converse
I love you! I love you more than I ever thought I could

Be with me always and be loved like you should