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Draco's blog: "Friends"

created on 09/26/2006  |  http://fubar.com/friends/b7024

Friendship

For me having a great friend that I am able to have for 7 years is unheard of...But I have this great person in my life..She is awesome in here on right...I get over protective of her and I get jealous when guys talk to her...I shouldn't I know I shouldn't but I care for this person...I love her to death...I would do anything for her...BUt there are times that I see she wants nothing to do with me and she reassures me that's not the case...With me being home and sick alot of stuff goes through my mind and it shouldn't....This person has been my rock since I been having these health issues and I hope she will stay there with me through it all...In a way I am saying I am sorry hun....Sorry for every jealous thing I have done...I am not myself and you know this....What I'm trying to say is you are are right about it all....And.....I love you

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Ok people I have spent the last couple of days in the hospital for chest pains and it looks like the valve they put in is not working right so it looks like i will be needing surgery again real soon but I am gonna try and wait until after the holidays for my kids i'm not going to ruin that for them...but i ask of my cherry family to keep my family in your prayers that i will still be around thank you Draco

Why?

My world is crashing around me....The bombs overseas seems like they are next door..The baby crying in cali seems to be in the next room..My mind is all over the place and my broken heart seems to be getting worse my health seems to be fading away...Why do I continue to fight? Why do I continue to listen to Dr's? Why?

Me

Feburary of 2006 I went through a major surgery..Open Heart surgery. Where they replaced my aortic valve and cut off the bottom of my heart cause it had a hole in it..So yes you can say I was sick..The thing is since my surgery I have been in and out of hospitals and getting sick all the time...Which scares me and makes me think that someone is telling me I wont be around much longer...My Best Friend tells me not to worry and to always think positive in which sometimes I do...But I also reminded my friend that the last time i had this feeling I needed surgery and this person thought I was nuts..turned out I was right lol...I'm not scared of dying hell I have died a few times and came back..my main concern is not me but my kids and family and friends...I know you are saying I should be worried about myself...If any of you truely know me (there is 1 person who comes to mind) knows I don't worry about myself I always look at for the other person..I always been the type of person that would give you the shirt off of my back or give you my last $20 so you can feed yourself..I am writting this blog to help get somethings off of myu chest..I am also worried when they did the surgery and messed up everything inside that they changed me...I'm not the same person I have become a lil meaner to some special people in my life and I am trying to work on it...I hope this blog doesn't scare you...it was meant for you to know what is going on in my life and where i stand now..To my close friends thanks for the support you have givin me this far..and to my best friend I know I am an ass and I'm not the same person anymore...but I am working on it....Much love to the cherry family Draco aka JJ aka John

Friends

Why is it that when someone makes a mistake they get crusified for it over and over and over again.It makes no sense to me. Which is why I am starting to hate the human race...I am not perfect far from it and I know I can be a complete ass...I just wish my friend would just forget about the past and move on....To start over..I know I messed up and I believe I am paying for it through my health...Which is getting worse by the second.....Maybe I should just do something about this....
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