DDG0211 LOVES's blog: "friends"

Hi.  I know a few wondered what happen to me, I have been getting back into working out, Had two cool races I was going to do, But missed a stair in my house broke my stupid toe, I was not able to workout with a walking boot. It's been three weeks, Going back to boot camp next week. Hoping to catch a race in June, love ya

You know Iwas  hiding on this web site for a long time.. Life had hurt me that bad, I wanted nothing to do with it anymore.

After almost two years I wanted to fight for my life back, 

I learned some people are not meant to be happy, Either you never really,   find love or your to afraid to let someone in, I guess it really does not matter because you are broken anyway. 

You turned off your feeling so many times you forgot how to turn them back on, You know that is really a sad thing, You end up alone, 

God knows i have been paid back for everything I did wrong in my life times 10.. 

I kept telling myself 2014 was going to me different, foolish woman,

This is my life just deal with it,  

I can't began to tell everyone how much I miss my friends, I let someone tell me I had no friends here, I am here to tell you that was not the truth, 

Damn , I hate the holidays. Sometimes I wish I could ran back to here, it was safe, If I do that than I give up, And I can't do that, But thank you for the videos and the texts it as meant the world to me, 

You always wonder why? people would be so sad to play on a web site." I did" When I first came on to fu. I had no clue what it was, What I found on fu was alot of different kinds of people, I met alot of retired people, People who became friends who were very ill. To the people who could not work. The one thing I found that we all had in common was we were all lonely or something missing in our lives, 

I think about when I was playing and this lady had it end for me, She said terrible things that hurt, You know, I heard her story too. Just another person who had a bad marraige and been hurt, It's really terrible  people can forget other peoples feelings so easy, I had to walk alway from fu, because I am not that kind of person, The people who knew me knows this, Yes I knew how to play the game, 

I have had a change to say hi to a fews friends, I miss a few people , but I don"t miss the game, 

I was always that girl who wanted true love, My marraige about killed me, My husband never hit me , but he liked to make sure I knew I was nothing, The relationships I had are here , lol Well, all most made me believe that,

That's what I am doing now guys, I am repairing a very broken me and putting her back together, Getting that divorce, new job, new place to live, I am taking my life back.