noOne's blog: "Friends"

I guess I'm not as great a friend as I thought I was.

I have two women who where my best friends. I could talk to them about ANYTHING. They both got me through some of the hardest times in my life, including my divorce. They were there for me when I needed them.

Friend one had gotten ahold of me about two years ago. We hadn't  spoken in years. She's on the road A LOT with her business. We had lost touch. Anyways she calls me and after talking a little about what's up with me, she drops a bombshell. She learned a year ago that her 25 year old daughter has a heart condition and was given two years to live. I was close with her daughter. Her daughter also was much support during my divorce, Now she's dying. I have NO idea what to say to her. I haven't spoken with my friend since.

About 2 weeks ago, I was told that friend 2's son was killed in a truck accident 4 weeks ago. He was 25. I went to her myspace  profile. For the last 4-5 months, her screenname has been "I'm so lonely". I figured it was because her husband works long hours and she hardly saw him. But now I'm getting the feeling he's not around at all . 

I started feeling guilty that I wasn't there for my friends when they needed support. I've changed my phone number a few times. But there are still ways to get a hold of me. I don't know. Maybe the lapse in friendship made them feel they couldn't talk to me or they weren't as close to me as I thought they were?