161087's blog: "Friends"

Am I A Good Guy……? As I see you in tears, it makes me want to cry. As I feel your pain, inside I die One day you will let me help you, trust me enough, but with what you have been through, I know that will be tough I see your thoughts, heart and mind, so beautiful and sexy are you, yet also so kind. Where have you been all my life, I so want to shout, because you are so wonderful you bring this part of me out. So torn am I, as I sit here and ponder all of this. As you bring poetry to my heart. Yet I also see what so many others do, that which is the part that makes me desire you, as a man does a woman. Am I a good guy, it feels not so. I rage inside, just for a kiss of your sensual lips. No longer are they just those of a friend, they have become larger, so much more. I long to feel them upon mine. So torn am I, am I a good guy….. I lay here awake, sometimes in the middle of the night. I gasp at the thought of seeing your body, your breast so firm, and your skin so tight. I wish to caress you, slowly, melding my hands with every inch of you. Your warmth, so near me, and yet I am torn. I want so badly to kiss your lips, yet my mind wonders as there have become so many places I want to kiss and lick. And yes I am torn, because I don’t want to be like every other guy, just some other dick. Please do not fear to be my friend, as I am torn with these thought, I will always be there for YOU in the end.

I know that you don't have to be alone to be lonely. I know that sometimes you may have been hurt, mentally or physically, and made to fell you had no self worth so you stayed in the relationship out of fear of being alone because you were made to feel no one else might want you. I know that sometimes you need to go out, clubbin or bar hopping, to blow off steam and just forget. To get hit on by guys, not because you have bad intentions, but because you need to know you are still desirable. I know that the falling in love is the highest of highs. But it fades. I know that to you, sex is still making love. Sure, maybe once in a while a fuck with someone hot was nice, but making love with someone who's touched your heart was everything…is everything. I know that a text message the next day brings a smile to your face and one inside that no one else can see. I know that you want to be the one I am thinking of during the day. I know that your man is hot and sexy to you, no matter what anyone else thinks. I know that you're disgusted by the way some men act, or the comments they leave on you're my space, while somewhere it is also a little flattering. Everyone likes being desired. I know sometimes you need to be heard (just listened to, not spoken to), or held without being felt, or felt up. I know you're not a "Gold Digger" but you want to be secure, in your home and your life. I know you want to be special, have something unique from all the other hot woman that your man can only find with you. I know you want me to hurt when you leave me, and you don't want me to be happy with any other. I know you don't have to be controlled; you need the trust to prove you're true. Being questioned or controlled robs you of that chance. I know you have needs and desires, sometimes maybe even ashamed of them or things you want to experience. I know that possessions are a means to an end….and the best cars and clothes mean nothing without someone to share it all with. I know you don't mind supporting your man financially, so long as he supports you emotionally and stays true….otherwise, "To the left, to the left". I know I can be all of these things to you if given the chance, but that I will never get it because I don't know you

A sample of my work when a DJ Friend of mine wanted to see if I still had it...he put me on the spot by announcing a "Guest DJ in the house"....

1. When people say they will do something, then don't. Procrastination...ok, shit comes up...but to just not do it at all is like a ..."Hey, fuck you!". 2. When someone bumps into you, and don't even acknowledge it. Most of the time, even if it was not me at fault, I will turn and say excuse me. *** However, there are those times when I see it is someone who thinks he's a bad ass or thinks they don’t have to say "Excuse me" because there ancestors were oppressed 200 years ago.....that’s when I like to boldly say..."Excuse YOU"...and hope they say something stupid : ) 3. When people change lanes and get in front of you, then wanna ride the friggin break. 4. When the put the blinker on...as there turning or changing lanes. 5. That woman feel the have to show themselves to the world, naked, and pretend there sluts to get attention on the internet....and worse, that we men have become so shallow. 6. That you think I sent that friend request because you think I want to f**k you. 7. That I haven’t spoke to you for days/weeks/months because some other guy fed you better lines, then when he fucks you over you want to come back and talk to me (that is, if I had forgot to remove you from me friends list). 8. That I seemed interesting and exciting, until I thought you were too! 9. Lame excuses. 10. That people on CT have hours to participate in stupid contests, but don't have minutes to talk to the people they call friends. 11. That some people would rather play with themselves in front of the computer then get out and have real sex : ) 12. When you meet that really special someone, and find out they live hundreds of miles away. 13. That people can't be open and honest about how or what they are feeling. 14. That I have to dial 1 to get information in our national language. Let Them dial one to get another language. 15. That I have to give my money to the smug son of bitch behind the counter at 7-11 who was, only months ago, in Iraq and was a fucking enemy to the country, now here and giving a business and residence in our country...yet we have people who's families lived here for generations, starving in the street. 16. Political correctness. WTF is that all about? Say what the hell you feel; they haven’t taken freedom of speech from us....yet! 17. People feel they have to be fake to be liked. ...and on these notes...to those people I really f**king hate.... ** Oh...and I hate that this is considered acceptable, but Photobucket finds sexual acts obscene....what a bunch of fags....hahaha ** ....oh yeah, and Chain comments....if you feel you want to tell me something...tell ME! Im not gonna send a comment to a bunch of people for my daily affirmation that Im liked or loved. Frankly, I don't give a shit !!! Like me for me or not at all.

I Hope you are proud of yourself…….. I was there, through the pain, through the tears, I was there to listen, and walk you through your fears. I was there, to be your friend, nothing more I was there, after he beat you badly and slammed your head in the door I was there, when you had enough When you could take no more I was there to make sure you were able to leave To stand by your side while he threatened you But to make sure he could hit you no more As days and weeks went by, I was there as a friend, to hold you when you cry Then one day I realized you deserved more And I was there, so that you got it for sure Plans were made, the night was to be fun You called me earlier, but said you had to run. “I call you back, you said in a rush..” You never did, and that wasn’t cool. You fucked the only friend who really cared, But now who’s the fool. So next time your hurting, beaten And with a black eye, Whom will you call, to listen to you cry. I hope you are proud of yourself for hurting your friend, But don’t fret to much, because that night was the end!

I didn't lie or embelish on any of them....

Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect

Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it. You have the confidence to make the first move. And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best. Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing!

Your Seduction Style: The Charmer

You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement. You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you. By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power. And then you've got them exactly where you want them!

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a wanderer. You constantly long for a new adventure, challenge, or eve a completely different life. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you. Your near future is all about change, but in very small steps. The end of the journey looks far, but it's much closer than you realize. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Your Love Element Is Metal

In love, you inspire and respect your partner. For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience. You attract others with wit and a bit of flash. Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you. Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life. You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past. You connect best with: Earth Avoid: Fire You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

I actually think its pretty accurate, and thats not because i am a Virgo, or like to toot my own horn. If you know me, you know I dont do that. I THOUGH THIS WAS INTERESTING VIRGO: The Virgin Dominant in relationships. Sexy. someone loves them right now. Freak in bed. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Intellectual. Attractive. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Hard to forget. Love at first sight. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. Ultimate sexiness.

Have you ever wondered how a woman's brain works? Well....it's finally explained here in one, easy-to-understand illustration:

...By the way, since when did being a Pimp become cool ??? A man who lets his woman, or any woman for that matter, sleep with just any old dirtbag, and makes money from it, because she thinks he loves her, or beats her ass, is a f**king low life scumbag, no matter how you slice it!

Biggest turn off.....Blasts asking for comments and ratings. If your so in need of attention, and in such volume....then us guys know we could never be enough. Yeah, we all love to lust and think about sexy woman.....but believe it or not...the ones we truly love and give our heart and soul...are the ones we have (can) have by our sides for a lifetime. The ones we know we can be there everything as well. Any of you who have seen my adult collection may think ....who the hell is he to talk. Yet those who know me and have taken the time to know me always ask, "Why are you single, you seem like a great guy"...the reason....I want the one girl who needs no others love or attention. Just some food for thought....have fun...I truly adore you girls...and really only wish you all the very best and happiness. That is on the real and with all my heart. xoxoxoxox