So I think to myself. Why do I try so hard to get friends? 

Everyday i try to make friends because I am tired of been alone and tired of not having anyone close to talk with, for that matter I have no one to do anythign with entirely. I have tried to behave in every possible way I have thought of or head of trying to make people see me in a different light and perhaps they would join me. Apparently nothing has worked so far. Some say I should not try so hard in fact that i should just be myself,but, what good is it to be yourself if you hate been yourself because you hate how things go on around you. I guess in any result of this I should take that I am just the lucky one that will leave like as an spectator to it and will not be able to play the game even if as much as try it.