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FREEDOM!

I had forgotten what it felt like to let my mind be free of you. It had been so long that I constantly thought of you and us. Don’t misunderstand I think of you still but you don’t completely occupy my mind so unfairly like years before. I can now better concentrate on other aspects of my life and not those illusions you allowed me to constantly and falsely dream. Why didn’t you tell me? Why allow me to so unfairly drown in my inaccurate thoughts of us?  Why waste my time when so much time was given already? Im confused,  I feel such a burning hate in my heart, or maybe that’s just the leftover hurt. I truly wish you all the happiness the world can give but I am stuck here wishing that that  happiness was with me. I fear that by my talking about her it pushes you further into her arms but I will just have to endure. Please don’t take this as my trying to tell you what to do in any way shape or form. I just want you fully aware of what I think and feel. I know you will continue to do what you think is best.  It helps ME to get this out on the table.  I don’t believe you two belong together. Im worried she will hurt you. You already tend to keep any deep feelings you have to yourself. If you fall for her and she breaks your heart…who knows what will happen to you. I can only imagine it will further cast you into your shell. I am reminded of a black widow spider. She drawls in her clueless mate with sex then with no mercy devours their very being without so much as a thought. I have seen this happen over and over. She is going to eat you alive. Lead her to feed on someone else, I am afraid she will be the end of you.