and i cant do anything cause my dumb ass lent my money out and now noone want sto pay me back so all that crying and scrambleing to do somethig go somewhere meet someone try and have fun pissed down the drain like my beer buzz i can still drive somewhere but whats the point if i dont have money you know what i mean. i hate relying on others thats why i dont make them pay me back so i hope no one is reading this thinking its for sympathy just venting. ok im better i dont know what im doing now but thats no change from yesterday when i thought my brothers would pay me back today but now i'm broke with nowhere and noone to drink with