Have you ever loved someone so much that you would give anything in the world for them? No matter what they did or said you could never stop loving them every second and of every minute of your life. Have you ever had a person in your life that knows you better then anyone else and you know them just as well and no matter how much you try you can never find anything that you dislike about that person? The thought of this person makes you smile and feel all warm and fuzzy inside and the thought of being with them and being with them makes you cry tears of joy. Have you ever cared or loved for someone more then words could ever say? You would do absolutely anything to see this person happy and even if it was with someone else you would still be happy for them if they were truly happy. Have you ever loved someone so much you would be absolutely devastated if they were to even just get angry with you or if you never talked to them again? You wouldn't be able to go on with your life if they passed away or you never heard from them again.
I love him more then life and for as long as I've known him he's been there for me countless times. He is the voice inside my head and is the person who has taught me some of lifes most important lessons. I would give him anything I possibly could. He has my heart and will always have it. He continues to amaze me every time I talk to him and he knows all the ways to make me smile. From day one I've cared for him quite a lot. We were just friends on the internet then and I didn't care I wanted to get to know him more and more. I was infatuated and facinated by all the things he had to say. through the mist of it all my heart filled with a love like no other for him even if I had never seen what he looked like. It is the truest purest love I could ever feel and just the thought of it makes me happy. Few months after I met him online I finally was able to meet him in person. I had never seen what he looked like before hand so I was scared. As I saw him walking up to were my cousin I were sittin outfront of the target we were at my heart skipped a beat and it felt as if I had seen him before but it was only in my dreams. I felt myself fall that much deeper for him and the rush of just a hug from him was amazing. We went to the mall as walking thru that mall I was in aw of him and couldn't take my eyes away from him. Just looking into his eyes was a feeling like no other. As we left I took his hand in mine and I swore my heart was going to explode from beating so fast and I just could stop smiling. The last hug I was able to give him I wish could have last for ever it felt so perfect. Mind you the entire time I've kept my feelings because I never thought he felt the same. Now a year and 3 months after seeing him I finally allowed myself tell him my feelings. I could go on forever about how much I care about him and how my love for him will never fade but grow stronger as the days go on. I will never forget the night I was telling him my feelings I didn't think I had the balls to say. The tears of happiness rolling down my face as I thought of all he's done for me and knowing that he will continue to do so many amazing things for me that I could never even put into words. I remember saying it all to him again on the phone and trying to hold back the tears of joy again. That was on a couple nights ago and my love for him just grows and grows. We are seperated by about 200 miles and about a 3 hour drive away. We are long distance but we are trying to make this work. I can only pray to the lord for the strength and keep the doubts at bay to be able to do this. I know how much I want to be with him and I know I will do WHATEVER it takes to be with him.
I know people don't approve of this and I know there are many doubters out there or those who think this is something pathetic. And to those people I just hope you will find a love that you would do anything for even if the odds are against you.
I pray to God that I will never lose him because I have already experienced a small bit of what it would be like and I just fall apart and I can't handle it. I don't think I could ever get over it. I know I will NEVER forget him and I will NEVER stop loving him. He forever has a large part of my heart and I know no one could ever replace him or ever come close to him.
