I had thoughts of calling you up today
but if you answered I had nothing to say
my words left me long ago as time ran out
The day things changed and my life drained
I start to light a smoke, as tears come
Holding them back i begin to choke
trying hard to be the man people expect
it's never enough I've got nothing left
where do I go from here, where can i turn?
I have gone as far as i know how to
They say you live and you learn
I tried it and now i'm not so sure
I sit outside as the rains falls down
letting it flood and wash you out
streaming down with tears that i taste
secretly wishing to see your face
Did you ever really need me
did you ever really care?
I give all that I had
you were never there
You called me crazy you called me unstable
and try as I might i always seem to fail
have you ever wanted what you can't have?
Do you ever dream of one so sad?
Like a child my heart jumps for you
surrounded in memories I held onto
Your voice is like a needle plunging in
reminding me of the love, that is forbidden
.....................J
{before anyone asks no it's not about anyone}
