Terror strikes the unsuspecting soul;
Unrelenting fear stalks the mind.
The cage that surrounds me
Closes in; suffocating me with its closeness.
I feel desperate
No one to turn to
As my lips must remain sealed
To the panic I encounter.
I bow my head in pain,
My face driven to the ground
Each day becomes a chore just to exist,
Thoughts of self-destruction entertain the mind.
Blackness engulfs me
Fleetingly but prominent.
A quick fix of medicated healing
Allows the mind to recharge, momentarily.
As I continue to exist
Within the confines of my medicated barrier,
Not being able to envision self-relief,
The sun of another’s warmth invades my world.
Afraid to look up and acknowledge my earthly saviour,
I, instead, place my hand in the proffered hand.
The cloak of his protection slips on to my shoulders
As he raises me to my feet.
I briefly wonder why this person of love
Reaches out to console me in my fabricated world,
Not knowing or questioning the reason for my pain;
Just being there as my shield.
Love begins to wash over me;
The boundaries of my commitment demolished.
At this onslaught of romantic emotion,
I feel helpless at its miraculous healing.
In trepidation I raise my eyes
To view my benefactor of love.
Yet, instead of a return of this romantic interlude,
An insurmountable barrier is erected.
For I am staring into my eyes;
Viewing my full lips;
My heart is racing to the tune of his,
Yet our hearts cannot beat as one.
What a trick to be played upon the vulnerable!
The law of the land has been pronounced
And must be obeyed by its inhabitants:
Alas, the blood of our parents IS thicker than the water of romance.
