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Some ppl have been trying to figure me out ... that's not a easy task!
Most tend to see me as avery strong lady, and a cowgirl. Well let me tell you, I may step up to the plate when I need to. Whether it be protecting my kids, skinning a hog, buckin bales, fixin fences, or starting a colt. I am also very kind hearted, I like to give when I can. I am sensitive as well. Some may just say it's all apart of being a woman... I think I am more than they average woman. No, I'm not stuck on myself. I just tend to care about ppl, critters and everything. Nothing is more precious than a brand new living thing! Babies, foals, kittens, puppies.. all bring so much joy to this rather bleak world.
There is nothing worse than losing a child, that has changed me alot in the past 8 1/2 months. I cry daily and do not let anyone see that part of me. It's the "strong" - " tough" lady every one see's. I think about dying alot. I won't I have to many that depend on me. Yet I have no one I can depend on totally. I'm alone in this world. I keep myself protected because I hurt so much and have been hurt so much.
I also suffer from bi-polar. It really really SUCKS !!!! I hate the roller coaster it puts me on beyond normal life! Things that keep me centered and on a even keel is HONESTY, COMMUNICATION, MY HORSES, MY KIDS and RESPECT. I don't want any one to fill me full of shit, words that do not mean anything. I much rather be friends then be led on to a false sense of friendship, love or attraction.
I've been around the block quite a few times and I am not nieve. Do not play me for stupid or gullable! Keep you damn drama to yourself. I have enough to deal with than alot of Bullshit!
I believe in God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, karma as well. I cuss now n then out of bad habits, but I try not to. I don't drink anymore because of losing someone very special and close to drinking to much and vomiting asperating in to his lungs and result was drowning.I've done more than my share of drugs but got over that stage and realized I was just young and dumb.
The cowgirl in me does not start shit but will not back down. I am quite and reserved. I work hard and play harder. I'm not afraid of 1200 lb animals, and I am not scared of bugs or snakes. What scares me most is dying alone and never finding again my life mate. I know I hold alot back.
For those that wish to be closer, talk to me, don't overly flirt, be my friend. Please be real and genuine. I am 24/7/365. I am no different online than I am offline. Don't play with my heart ... it's fragile.
My horses rank right up there as my kids. Always have and always will. Don't get jealous of my love for them, I have plenty to go around if you are lucky enough to be one of the ones I truly care about and love. If you get that close treat my heart well and it will ALWAYS be there for you.
I'm a scorpio by birth, which means I don't let ppl in very close easily. Once you are there I will remember you for life. I tend to be mysterious (which is why so many can't figure me out). I set back and watch how ppl act. I can't stand players. I know fu is a game all in all but come on ppl if you wouldn't do this shit in real life why do it online????
If you wish to take a chance at getting to know me be fair warned I'm not a easy nut to crack. Ask anything you want but be prepared for a honest answer !
