lostsoul68's blog: "For those not coming home"

LOST Sometimes I cannot help but to remember what I ‘ve lost. There is no music playing as I examine the cost. So many things await me. Sins I will one day answer for. My soul is mostly black & yet I sold it like a whore. I did not do it because I was in a dire need. I walk my own path . In the End it’s me who will bleed. I have so many choices; Y et my hands seem bound. Somewhere on this road I’ve become lost. I need to be found. My choices seem reckless. Bordering [to you ] almost insane. I died a long time ago, darlin’ . You see the shell that remains. Like a lost treasure I am hard to find…So true. I walk through Hell in my travels. All ask is……Will you?

Listen Can You Hear The Angels Laugh? For as long as I can remember; we've played our little game. I'd struggle for happiness and He'd take it away. I could be bitter as I pick myself up after each fall. Yet He does it to make the angels laugh. He's God after all. No matter how low I fall or down I may seem. I'll get back up smiling; Cause the joke was on me. He can't bring me down. I won't be forlorn & blue. Someday we will meet & He'll have some explaining to do. Heaven is so happy & I'm the reason why. Constantly He doth test me. My life’s page don't lie. But the game long played has an end coming near. A final joke is coming or the sincerest apology ere hear'd. An angel has been sent to earth who can wreak such havoc. For she is God's way of apologizing; A chance at true happiness. She is also forbidden fruit; Who can deny him at last... As I look to the heavens listening...do I hear the angels laugh? Settle Why should we expect love to last an eternity? Fights and the games after only a few weeks. Remember how it felt the night we first danced? Not in love with love but because of romance. I know we will not forever be one. Our love will be memorable yet too soon done. Most people want it all but never have a clue... I'm not settling for less I'm aspiring for you. HEAVEN'S NOT FOR ME....... I hear Heaven is beautiful with streets paved with gold. Everlasting contentment; None of life’s woes. An eternal happiness that has never been matched. Evil doers try to get in... by plans crudely hatched. It seems to be everything a person could want. I don't know. One thing is certain ..If your not there I won't go. You mean so much to me, to go and not find you there. I'd have to search Hell because Heaven would be bare. The preacher says Heaven is filled with riches untold. Obviously he hasn't had someone like you to hold. I see the smile on your face is brighter than St. Peters gate. Let me know if your going otherwise I'll wait. I know it seems petty to shirk Heavens Eternity.. Your the only reason I'd...Otherwise Heaven's not for me. THORN Every rose with a Thorn is like a heart so cruelly torn. With love and care the heart can mend. A heart won't break if only it would only bend. Love is a game that we like to play. Fear of rejection causes some to stay. Love and Sorrow, Happiness and sad. Be true to your heart and hold happiness fast. Always move forward ,You can't live in the past. Love and sorrow happiness and pain... If you trust your heart you may gain. Trust your heart but wait not long for by tomorrow it may be gone. As time makes you weary and your feeling worn..... Remember your love; Remember the thorn.

Hell just isn't the same without you [for those not going home] We'd hit the doors with our nonchalant speed... Night after night our routine was simple; the only "fix" we'd need. Yet the days grew longer; it seemed longer than the drought. The heat intensifies...Soon our luck would run out. Day after day we hit the same rat's maze of buildings. It's like the song says, Hell really is for children. I remember following close as you kick the door. Then a blast. As I woke up much later, I realize that run was our last. They sent you home with honor and can you believe ..A Parade! I laugh as I hear; For much like you I can see through the charade. Let the public believe they can win the war, as they bury their son. For this is the staging ground for China. A new cold war has begun! I am just a soldier. For me? Politics? Sorry I can't do. For my friends going home with flags...Hell just ain't the same without you.