~~~~my heart up in flames burning with pain, my eyes pouring out a salty rain. hurting the one that i know cares for me, to follow my heart to see what it will be. am for the anger i have caused my dear friend, hoping this will not be the end. my heart says i should try one last time to be with someone from the past, but i am so afraid that once again, it wont last. both these men mean so much but i am starving for attention and touch i cant seem to bring myself to stop hurting inside, almost as if i am losing my pride. bad at being a mom and worse at being a friend, sometimes wishing today would be the end wanting to scream with anger and hurt, wishing i could crawl in a hole in the dirt, wanting to take back all the hurtful things i told him tonight, knowing i cant because it wouldnt be right wanting to let the words come flowing out, but instead i want to scream and shout wanting someone to hold me tight, knowing i cant have that tonight~~~~
