It has been one year,
Four months, and four days
Since you became my boyfriend.
Ironically, today is my birthday.
I'm lying here, so scared that you can tell
I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing.
Your eyes and lips are giving different instructions.
You say just to do what comes naturally
But your eyes tell me exact directions to get there.
Exactly sixteen years ago I was born.
Is it quite possible you don't know what you're doing, either?
Your lips find mine for a sweet, blissful kiss as
The whole of me trembles under your touch.
So soft, smooth, slipping over my flesh
As I gasp for breath.
You hold me so near as if you're
Afraid I'll fly away
Out of your reach
Away from your grasp
No one is home
Except the two of us
You are here to take me to
The party that was supposed to be
A surprise.
I knew all along, but my parents should
Have known not to let you come to get me
My party dress is lying on the floor
Along with what you were wearing
Almost ripped from each other's bodies as
We were both hit by a wave of
Burning desire.
You're twirling my hair around your
Finger as I lie here
Forgetting that there is a world
Outside these walls
Forgetting that, in a short second
We have to return to that world.
I pick up my dress,
Determined not to allow my friends
To see the new burning light
In my eyes,
Begging to be taken again
But knowing there is no time.
You take my hand as we
Walk out the door,
Quiet resolve that you won't
Let this change anything at all.
I'm allowed to date now,
But I don't think I will
I'll sit home on Fridays,
My friends all with their friends,
Talking to you on the phone.
You left for college
Four months ago and you
Haven't been back until tonight.
So what if I'm 16 and you're 18?
As in the words of someone wise
Age ain't nothing but a number.
I am LeSheen–
The one who shines
You told me so
What seems like
Very long ago.
We're in the parking lot,
My parents waiting expectantly for
The look of sheer surprise on my face
When I see them there.
The only surprise was when
You took me and made me
Your very own
Happy birthday to me
But this present's for you.
