This weekend was pretty tough, emotionally. Monday I found out that my ex boyfriend knocked up the woman that we had the 3 way experience with. I gave that to him, and a week later he breaks up with me, and now he tells me that he got her pregnant. He had been ignoring my texts, and so finally I ask him if he was dead, or if he was with someone now, that's when he came back with I was not sure how to tell you, but...I honestly did not think he could hurt me anymore than he has, but he did.
Then, today the guy that I've been waiting on, I finally told to basically go f*ck himself. I ask him a simple question, because it's been a month since we've been together, and over a week since I've seen him, he can't answer straight. I ask him if he's missed me at all, straight yes or no answer right? He says he does not know what he is feeling, or thinking. He is using his problems as an excuse now. I told him that he does know what he feels, but he chooses to ignore them, and chooses to use his feelings as a scapegoat in order not to get close to anyone. So, I told him I would leave him alone, and that I needed to be with someone who would miss me if it has been sometime since they have seen me.
I'm ready for a relationship, and I'm ready to move on. I miss having someone to hold. I have a lot of love to give to the right person. I don't even ask for much. I just want to be loved.
