Normally I blog in myspace, but someimes it's nice to witch things up lol. So, my birthday is 4 days away, I'll be 20, how unexciting is that? Everyone keeps telling me "oh another year till your 21." Well I don't drink anymore, so whats the point in being excited about that? lol I did all my drinking before the legal age, I got it out of the way then I suppose.
I wont be doing anything for my birthday, most of my family doesn't really care or know what time of year it is. They're all stuck up my my cousins ass wonder when she's going to get out of jail. They're too worried about my other cousins wedding...Now I understand both those things are bigger than a birthday, but I've always come last in this family, I come last after my two older sisters, and I come last after all three of my cousins. So maybe I get tired of it once inna while who knows. Once I move to Florida it'll be better...God I miss it down there. I miss my boy friend, I just want to be with him. He goes out with his friends and does all these things and he has a real life; I've got nothing. All I want is to be out with him, go places, do things. It's so not fair. My cousin who is getting married, she cheated on her fiance. They have a beautiful 3 y/o daughter, a really great place, the wedding's all planned out, and she's a year younger than me. She gets to see her guy everyday and then she goes and does something stupid like cheating on him? She's not ready to be getting married, I'm her maid of honor and I feel like screaming at her, she's jumping into things. The guy she's with is awesome, he's a good guy...I don't know it's just aggrivating, especially when it's your family doing something that screwy. I'm normally very straight forward but I've been trying to hold back what I have to say because I don't want to hurt her. But she needs to rethink what she's doing a little. Those two should be together, but she's just so in love with the idea of getting married she's gonna end up unhappy.
Maybe I'll write later I don't know.
