Since this is my first blog, I should forewarn you, my writing style is unorganized and rambling. If you need structure, read no further. This one's about an ex I lived with, when we first broke up. Not applicable anymore though, we're friends. :)
I was warned, I was told
I deserved more than you
I yearn just to turn away from the pain
Burn the gates to this hell I feel
So I might in turn be able to heal
And forget about love
There's nothing in it for me
Nothing more that I need
Oh lord I can see
It's not in the cards
Just ask my scars
They tell of the battles
Every damn one I faced
And they'll tell of the wounds
I've been forced to embrace
I've become such the fighter
That I suppose was my plan
But I reject, I refuse
I'm too sick to stand
This wasteland, this hole
It echos my soul
Empty and hollow, It cries
It dies, the lies, they always come
But faith is a bitch, I wish I could end it
I wish I were hopeless, I'd stop pretending
That I don't care
That I think it's fair
This hand I've been dealt, I DON'T
I won't, I won't, but what is weak
To give in to the plan or suffer defeat?
Or are they one in the same, all part of the game
The twisted whips and chains of fate
I HATE
You and everything you stand for
But I think I just might hate me more
Where did it start and where does it END
Don't break, just bend
Like the leaves of a palm
Pray for me, speak me a psalm
With your wasted words
Of a better tomorrow
Do you attribute this sorrow
To the stars and the makings of fate?
You leave me in the hands of your so called destiny
To spit on me and fuel my hate
The bitter revolt of change, that's my game
The yellow brick road's always been black in my eyes
Silent Hill, it's nothing but ashes
Wasted and worthless, bruises and gashes
Stake me, make me WHOLE
Help me, save me, Leave me ALONE
I won't be the fool
I don't need you
Alone is when I'm most at home
Despite my strain to keep things sane
To love in vain, to scorch this pain
My jesus is my solitude
I supposed.. (undisclosed)
I'm very much the same as you
