Violent J son of Morbid VampervHEAD ENFO's blog: "FEELINGS"

there are many forms of guilt but the one that continues to be a the killer is the one of never havein said goodbye. its been 2 years and ive never gotten over it and no matter how much i try to move on and forget that day it never seems to happen. and now i get to spend forever missin him and never gettin over the guilt that i wasnt there to be able to say goodbye and that i loved him one last time. if isnt was drives me to the grave i dunno what will but why does one person have to live with one simple mistake forever? and one does one not get over it?

TEN YEARS AGO I FEEL IN TO THE DEEP STATE OF DEPRESSION. I WAS LIKE A FOG OR A HAZE THAT JUST WENT ON FOR DAY AT A TIME WITH NO END IN SITE. NOW TODAY THE FEELINGS THAT I THOUGHT I BARRIED SO LONG AGO HAVE RETURNED AND IM BACK IN THE SAME HAZE AND IN THE SAME PLACE. MY FAITH SAYS THAT EVERYTHING OF THE EARTH WILL COME BACK AS SOMETHIN MORE NATURAL AND MORE PURE, I DONT DOUBT THAT AT ALL. I BELIEVE MY GREAT GRANDMA OR MY NANA AS I CALLED HER, WOULD HAVE RETURENED AS A BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLY. AND NOW MY GRANDPA WILL COME BACK TO ME AS A BEAUTIFUL EAGLE AND FLY AS FREE AS A BIG. I KNOW HE IS IN A BETTER PLACE AND OUT SOUL WILL CROSS PATHS AT THE CROSSROADS BETWEEN THE WORLD. THAT CALMS MY ACHEIN HEART AND SOOTHES MY DEMENTED SOUL.

ROBERT L. BROOKS JULY 30, 1932 - MAY 31, 2007 I WILL MISS HIM WITH EVERYTHING I GOT