Sissy's blog: "Feelings I Hide"

These feeling inside I try to hide, but with you it's to no avail. My mind often drifts back to one special night, and childhood fairytales. You saved me with one touch of your hand, and in that moment I began to understand, the nature of the burning that ran so deep inside. The pleasure of the moment, when you first kissed me. Your aftershave still lingers, on my pillow at night. Memories keeping me warm, of when you held me tight. I have never known such passion, never known such bliss. I never knew I could feel the way I felt, with one perfect kiss.

I close my eyes to hear his voice and yet I never do. And though we`ve never met one another my heart is what he seeks. I raise my chin to look in hopes to see his face, remembering that his voice is only in my head. Faith is my only hope that I will find him soon. Although I`ve never seen him, I know he loves me well. I have so many questions and much I want to say. I love his name, I love his face, I love how he makes me feel. I close my eyes to hear his voice and yet he never speaks outloud. And though we`ve never met one another my heart is what he seeks.

With every breath I take,I say a little prayer. I pray that I'll be old and wise with silver braided hair. I pray that I'll have lots of friends from young to very old. and one of them will haved learned from me something more valuable than gold. I pray I will have been of help to someone I hold dear and that my eyes stay good for at least another year. most of all I pray to live a long and healthy life and to make some old man a very happy wife.

Some days are made of sunshine some days Are made of rain. My favorite days are made of clouds and Winds that call my name. The clouds are my pillows and the winds My pillow slips. They make me have the sweetest dreams And bring smiles to my lips. The wind softly whispers sweet nothings in My ear And the clouds ease my troubled mind till There's nothing left to fear. I would like to thank my maker for giving Me these gifts of puffy clouds and windsongs That give my spirit such a lift.

My heart beats for you, my mind dreams of you. The woman in me craves your touch, I was born for you as you were born for me. In the space of a heartbeat, I felt you in the deepest part of me. My heart beats faster,pulses leap with excitement, palms get sweaty,butterflys take flight. Your voice moves me in a way nothing ever has, Your touch is like fire on my skin branding me for all time. When you are near the world is warm and giving, Take me futher and deeper than I have ever been, as only you can. 3/7/2006

I felt such love the first time we kissed, The earth moved,time stood still. I lay in your arms and feel such contentment, I have never felt this way before,my heart over flowing. I have so much faith in you, I will never have doubts or fears with you. Your love has shown me such a fresh new dawn, Our lives will be built on solid ground. Your arms are like the safest haven on the darkest night. I want to spend eternity being with you, To know that you are with me, always holding and loving me. 3/16/2006

I miss you, only seems like yesterday when we were together in my dreams. My hand in yours, it felt like we were in heaven. When are you coming home? When will I see your face,taste your lips? I hope our love never ends, I miss you so much, there are no emotions in this world to show how I feel, I love you so much The taste of your lips, The feel of your touch, Baby I miss you so much. Every night I see you in my dreams, it feels like you are really there, but these visions are haunting me. I am afraid that they will never really be, But until the day you come home to me you''ll always be with me in my dreams. I miss you!

I sneak a peak without you knowing, My tender love forever flowing. I dream of you, your love as sweet as wine, But in reality you're far from mine. One day I'll tell you these feelings I hide, And that I need you by my side. I want to walk with you, hand-in-hand, On a beach at night making footprints in the sand. I want to have memories of fun times together, And make vows that our love will last forever. The only thing that stops me from telling you how I feel is fear, I'm afraid that if I said "I love you," you would turn a deaf ear. I think of you every hour of every single day, Hoping that you'll eventually send your lovin' my way. All I have right now are wishes, wants and dreams, But hoping that you'll be mine isn't as bad as it seems. Because the possibility is always there, That when I say "I love you," you will truly care.