what is it that is causing me to feel this way..
it just hit me out of no where, BAM!!! a feeling i would compare to, well maybe something similar to getting hit by a 16 wheeler. not that i ever have, but thats the first thing that comes to mind in trying to compare.
i'm probably gonna ramble on some, don't really expect you to read this,, if you make it all the way through,,thanks..
GGRRRRRR.. this is just so freaking annoying, i am usually so happy and content with all that happens in my life, and it's not even like anything has happened to bring about this completely overwhelming feeling in which i am fighting. struggling not to let myself drown in my own misery....
fuck it,,, i can't let this win,,i can't be beat down by my own mind!! i am strong,, i am willing i am thankful, i am blessed, i am loved, i am appreciated, i am enthusiastic, i am able, i am ok
writing helps,,,just getting out whatever may come, no second thought about it, no proof reading, just letting go of whatever comes.
.. i hate being lonely,, this is probably a factor in my sadness right right now..i just want to be held in my lovers arms,,, hurry up and come home to me baby!!!
i am strong,,, in my mind is where this feeling develops and in my mind i will overcome,,, i am strong enough to do anything i so desire,,, now it's time to do just that
