First, I just want to say I'm sorry for not doing much on rating or commenting as of late. Lately, when I get on site, the feeling of 'why bother?', 'what's the point?' and 'who really cares?' comes over me. I know part of it is because I haven't been feeling well and I'm feeling down. It could also be from tapping the energy of the Full Moon for the first time and it's just a form of 'let down'. But most of this has been ongoing for a while before that. I'll try to catch up as soon as I can shake this (I hope soon).
By now, you all will have noticed that I have taken my sort of nsfw pic of me out of my albums. I got tired of guys asking if they can see it (many without even rating me first) or asking to be on my family list when they find out that only 'family' can see it. Sorry, but I'm at my limit for adding more family and I'm not going to add anyone to the list just so they can see a stupid pic! That's not what the family list is for. At least, for me it isn't. The people on my list are there for my own reasons and the majority where there before that pic went in. Of course, the guys that need to read this, won't (lol).
I've also rearranged my albums. I've taken a few out because I really didn't like them and as I'm changing and growing, so is my taste in things. The loss in points is no big deal. If you had rated and/or comment on a pic that I had taken out, please don't take it personally. It's not a comment on your tastes. Basically, I've been doing 'housekeeping' here; taking care of my stuff for a change. (This is a result of the feelings I've been having.)
I guess part of the problem is I'm also tired of not have a life like I used to. I use to do things with friends and learn new things with them and from them. But due to circumstances beyond my control, those things have been put on hold, suspended or (I'm afraid) may never happen again. I'm at a loss as to what to do about it. I know life is all about change, but I'm tire of losing the things and people that matter to me because of change. I'm soooo tired of constantly dealing with the change and the loss that seems to always go with it. Why can't I have change without loss? When can I have a life that's real again? *sigh* I wish I knew.
