At this time in my life I have never felt more alone. Not because I have no one, but because I can't fix anything. I have great people in my life. But when it comes down to everything...I can only depend on me being here for me.
I never thought my life would ever end up like this...in any way at all. Of course as a child you have big dreams for your self. Wishes...My wishes and dreams never came true. I don't mean that in a pitiful way...I just wonder why some of us get get what we wish for and others don't.
I know that I am here for a reason...not sure what it is yet, but hopefully I will find out someday soon. I would love to have a life of meaning. Helping others is what I used to be able to do...now I can't even help myself so I can't give what I don't have.
So hopefully one day I will feel un-lonely LOL!!!
Thanks for reading my thoughts.
