I know I'm not beautiful, and everyone I fall in love with is a jerk. I guess you can say I am a failure when it comes to relationships. I always fall for the wrong type of person. I can't be good enough for anyone. I always feel I have to change myself in some way to become better. I'm trying not to feel down on myself, but every guy I've fallen for has hurt me, and I'm tired of the pain. I'm tired of feeling a feeling that isn't there. Blah, I'm just rambling.