tag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-3461342015-06-07T00:16:15-07:00Love is sent from heaven, but hurts like hell.A fubar user blog.AFFINITY 4 SHEhttps://fubar.com/utahokienoreply@fubar.comfubartag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-346134.12624442015-06-07T00:16:15-07:002015-06-07T00:16:15-07:00Just some more unheard, rambling...<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'arial black', 'avant garde'; font-size: medium;"><strong>My feelings have been a crazy mess as usual. I kind of think of it like the weather, forever changing, but mostly with cloudy skies, and a little sunshine peeking through from time to time. Not so bad, not so good. Could be better, could be worse.</strong></span></p>AFFINITY 4 SHEhttps://fubar.com/utahokienoreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-346134.12009272013-06-24T22:20:18-07:002013-06-24T22:20:18-07:00Life Goes On<h5 style="text-align: center;"></h5>
<h5 style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">Things are different since he walked out of our lives.</span></h5>
<p><span style="font-size: large;">Not terrible, just different. I have a wonderful person in my life that makes the transition easier. I have some realizations that have come to light with what has become of my life. This is not a new chapter, more like a entirely differnt book. Even as the story continues in a new cover and title, things will never be the same. Never be as they once were. Some people we thought would forever be there, will never be there again, even as they still walk the earth. As marriages go, another one bites the dust. I bow out, and not with much grace, but plenty of relief. Life doesn't feel as wicked. Being alone, proves to be better than being in the company of someone who does not, and never did, actually want to be there. It can be a scary world, a sad world, a frustrating world. But theres much to be found in way of joy too. It may be something as rediculously simple, as the sun rise, or the sound of the breeze in the trees on a cool night, or watching your child laughing and playing, and as life goes on, I'm trying to hold on to the good things, inspite of my pain.</span></p>
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<h5 style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;"><strong><em><span style="text-decoration: underline;">I Have Learned.....</span></em></strong></span></h5>
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</p><p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that you cannot make someone love you.<br />All you can do is<br />be someone who can be loved.<br />The rest is up to them.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that no matter how much I care,<br />some people just don't care back.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that it takes years to build up trust,<br />and only seconds to destroy it.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that it's not what you have in your life<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that you can get by on charm<br />for about fifteen minutes.<br />After that, you'd better know something.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that you shouldn't compare<br />yourself to the best others can do<br />but to the best you can do.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that it's not what happens to people<br />that's important. It's what they do about it.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that no matter how thin you slice it,<br />there are always two sides.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that it's taking me a long time<br />to become the person I want to be<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that it's a lot easier<br />to react than it is to think.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that you should always leave<br />loved ones with loving words.<br />It may be the last time you see them.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that you can keep going<br />long after you think you can't.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that we are responsible for what we do,<br />no matter how we feel.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that either you control your attitude<br />or it controls you.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that heroes are the people<br />who do what has to be done<br />when it needs to be done,<br />regardless of the consequences.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that learning to forgive takes practice.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that there are people who love you dearly,<br />but just don't know how to show it.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that money is a lousy way of keeping score.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that my best friend and I can do anything<br />or nothing and have the best time.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that sometimes the people you expect<br />to kick you when you're down<br />will be the ones to help you get back up.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that true friendship continues to grow,<br />even over the longest distance.<br />Same goes for true love.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that just because someone doesn't love you<br />the way you want them to doesn't mean<br />they don't love you with all they have.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that maturity has more to do with<br />what types of experiences you've had<br />and what you've learned from them<br />and less to do with how many<br />birthdays you've celebrated.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that you should never tell a child<br />their dreams are unlikely or outlandish.<br />Few things are more humiliating, and<br />what a tragedy it would be<br />if they believed it.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that your family won't always<br />be there for you. It may seem funny,<br />but people you aren't related to<br />can take care of you and love you<br />and teach you to trust people again.<br />Families aren't biological.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that no matter how good a friend is,<br />they're going to hurt you<br />every once in a while<br />and you must forgive them for that.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that it isn't always enough<br />to be forgiven by others.<br />Sometimes you have to learn<br />to forgive yourself.</span></p>
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<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;"><strong>I've learned -</strong><br /><strong>that no matter how bad</strong><br /><strong>your heart is broken</strong><br /><strong>the world doesn't stop for your grief.</strong></span></p>
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<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that our background and circumstances<br />may have influenced who we are,<br />but we are responsible for who we become.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that just because two people argue,<br />it doesn't mean they don't love each other<br />And just because they don't argue,<br />it doesn't mean they do.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that sometimes you have to put<br />the individual ahead of their actions.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that we don't have to change friends<br />if we understand that friends change.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that two people can look<br />at the exact same thing<br />and see something totally different.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that there are many ways of falling<br />and staying in love.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that no matter the consequences,<br />those who are honest with themselves<br />get farther in life.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that your life can be changed<br />in a matter of hours<br />by people who don't even know you.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that even when you think<br />you have no more to give,<br />when a friend cries out to you,<br />you will find the strength to help.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that writing, as well as talking,<br />can ease emotional pains.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that the paradigm we live in<br />is not all that is offered to us.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that credentials on the wall<br />do not make you a decent human being.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that the people you care most about in life<br />are taken from you too soon.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that although the word "love"<br />can have many different meanings,<br />it loses value when overly used.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-large;">I've learned -<br />that it's hard to determine<br />where to draw the line<br />between being nice and<br />not hurting people's feelings<br />and standing up for what you believe.</span></p>
<p> </p>AFFINITY 4 SHEhttps://fubar.com/utahokienoreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-346134.11697792012-02-07T15:25:36-08:002012-02-07T15:25:36-08:00another boring day<p style="text-align: center;"><strong><span style="font-size: large;">I've been taking vitamins, trying to eat more vegtables, going to bed earlier than I used to most of the time, and I am still dragging ass tired. Last night I did go to watch the movie, woman in black. I both liked it and didn't like it. Story line kind of lame, it still spooked me anyway. What good is vengance, if it's not directly involved with the person who wronged you.</span></strong></p>AFFINITY 4 SHEhttps://fubar.com/utahokienoreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-346134.11691232012-01-26T15:08:18-08:002012-01-26T15:08:18-08:00Just another boring day at home, gotta love it.<h1 style="text-align: center;">I have absolutely nothing interesting to write about but I am so bored. Today I went to the store, and well, that's about it. I am feeling pretty tired and just down as usual. Went out last night with my girls, Bonez and Camille. I had a nice time, listened to peope karaokee drank a bit. Didn't get sick so I know I didn't over do it. Why am I so tired all the time? I have no motivation, I'm just too dragging ass to be motivated.</h1>AFFINITY 4 SHEhttps://fubar.com/utahokienoreply@fubar.com