tag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-3290092012-01-24T11:23:49-08:00PoetryA fubar user blog.Candi RLM2 Outlawhttps://fubar.com/candeh112001noreply@fubar.comfubartag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-329009.11689812012-01-24T11:23:49-08:002012-01-24T11:23:49-08:00Lies<p>your words are nothing<br /> But poisonous lies<br /> Your eloquence enraptures me<br /> Your words enthrall thy soul<br /> Frequently you poison my mind, my body<br /> And my soul.<br /> Your aura is intolerable<br /> Your presence is shameful<br /> Thou reminds me of an odious palfrey<br /> You act if you are my prodigy<br /> With thy masked removed<br /> You’re nothing but thy fool.<br /> With one hand you hold a scythe<br /> And the other sword.<br /> A sacrifice for the sinner, a deep<br /> Torturing sense of guilt.<br /> Feeling sorrow and revenge<br /> You fall from grace<br /> Depraved of soul<br /> Resistant’s is weak.<br /> My little sinister how you bring harm<br /> Evil and misfortune<br /> Sulking around the shadows<br /> Grasping your evil deeds in your hands<br /> You fall deeper and deeper<br /> Becoming translucent and undeterred<br /> You've become unearthly<br /> Thriving in sin<br /> An insatiable, unsubdued thirst for pain<br /> On the verge of death<br /> You stumble into my court.<br /> I stand and watch as you wither into agony<br /> I step down and whisper into your ear<br /> As you slowly fade<br /> "I Always Loved You".</p>Candi RLM2 Outlawhttps://fubar.com/candeh112001noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-329009.11689802012-01-24T11:20:32-08:002012-01-24T11:20:32-08:00Still<p>I am still in love with Him<br /> My heart beats with his<br /> Every breath I breathe is his<br /> I am completely blind to others<br /> Pain his only affection<br /> That smile.<br /> His kiss,<br /> I take any pain<br /> Just to see his face<br /> And feel his hands<br /> Or his soft cold lips against mine.<br /> Watching him spill my blood<br /> Sends me into ecstasy.<br /> I'd die for him any day.<br /> Unfortunately that came<br /> He pushed to far<br /> Cut to deep<br /> His beautiful soft body came down next to mine<br /> And those lips whispered softly into my ear<br /> "I've found another".</p>Candi RLM2 Outlawhttps://fubar.com/candeh112001noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-329009.11689792012-01-24T11:17:24-08:002012-01-24T11:17:24-08:00Care<p>I dare you to love me<br /> I dare you to care for me<br /> All I want is for you to care<br /> <br /> I dared to love<br /> I dared to care<br /> And with that you took it all<br /> <br /> I had a chance<br /> I had freedom and love<br /> It was okay until I loved you<br /> <br /> I gave you my soul and heart<br /> I told you my darkest secret<br /> You shared it with the world<br /> <br /> After all I did to you<br /> You did worse to me<br /> All I because I dared you to love<br /> <br /> Was I that bad<br /> That you had to leave<br /> Was my kiss like acid rain<br /> <br /> Or was I sweet as wine<br /> I will never know<br /> Because I dared to care.</p>Candi RLM2 Outlawhttps://fubar.com/candeh112001noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-329009.11689782012-01-24T11:15:52-08:002012-01-24T11:15:52-08:00...<p>Play my wrist like a violin<br /> Steel kisses caress my skin<br /> Stings hit me then a wave of relief<br /> Still I run my arm underneath its teeth<br /> My best friend my stress reliever<br /> <br /> More effective than any meat cleaver<br /> No more tears stuff them deep inside<br /> Still they peep from the scars where they hide<br /> You must always smile never let it slip<br /> But when your alone you do a total flip<br /> <br /> Tears claw their way up and slide down your face<br /> Hidden emotions come out feeling out of place<br /> Soon you fall into a peaceful slumber<br /> Only to be woken by a constant number<br /> Snapped awake from the place of dreams<br /> <br /> And in a place of death and disease<br /> Each day passes still nobody knows<br /> Pure white tissues turn as red as a rose<br /> So polite so happy so normal<br /> Yet even with family I'm formal<br /> <br /> Where am I? who am I? I died years ago<br /> I created a character that who everyone knows<br /> Bright smile and expressive eyes<br /> But they don't understand that it's all lies<br /> Fire burns in my soul consuming my rage<br /> Until I can escape from my cage<br /> And that's when I play my wrist like a violin<br /> And sigh as I feel the steel bite in</p>Candi RLM2 Outlawhttps://fubar.com/candeh112001noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-329009.11689772012-01-24T11:12:17-08:002012-01-24T11:12:17-08:00Ever After<p>Dreary smiles and anguished laughter,<br /> They try to hide the pain,<br /> Of a broken happy-ever-after,<br /> As the tears run down your drain.<br /> <br /> A cry for help is calling you,<br /> Its sobs sigh on the wind<br /> That whistles up the Avenue,<br /> To rattle your window pane.<br /> <br /> Alone you sit, battered and bruised,<br /> As you read another page,<br /> Of another broken romance book<br /> That holds you, centre stage.<br /> <br /> The spotlight is on your tears,<br /> But the audience have departed,<br /> No one's left to share the fears<br /> That leave you broken hearted.<br /> <br /> And so with melancholy in your head,<br /> You contemplate the tall grey tower,<br /> Thinking you'd be better dead,<br /> You could leap, it'd be all over.<br /> <br /> And your soul could fly with angels,<br /> Or the demons of the night.<br /> That's the alternative angle,<br /> The enigma of your plight.<br /> <br /> So where do you go tonight,<br /> As the shadows dance their merry dance,<br /> By the flickering tongue of candlelight,<br /> That holds you in its trance?<br /> <br /> You go to dream another nightmare,<br /> Of a place where heartache reigns,<br /> Where there is no happy-ever-after,<br /> Where lover's cry in vain.<br /> <br /> Welcome then, to my world<br /> Of lost and lonely souls,<br /> A place where funeral shrouds unfurl<br /> And blackness billows through your bones.<br /> <br /> It creeps, stealthily, through your veins,<br /> And drowns your heart in sorrow.<br /> And should you manage a smile today,<br /> You'll be dead by tomorrow.</p>Candi RLM2 Outlawhttps://fubar.com/candeh112001noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-329009.11607842011-09-29T21:00:53-07:002011-09-29T21:00:53-07:00lost<p>Can you kill my deep pain?<br />It’s hurting me so much!<br />Can’t bury it!!<br />Can you wake me up from the nightmares?<br />Lost voices are haunting me!!<br />I am losing control<br />Can you set me free?<br />I am lost in the darkness<br />I lust for deep sleep so long<br />Can you save me?<br />I can’t hold my breath<br />Screaming but no one is hearing me<br />I am dead to the world<br />Losing control slowly<br />So slowly that I am fading and becoming invisible</p>Candi RLM2 Outlawhttps://fubar.com/candeh112001noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-329009.11607832011-09-29T20:47:44-07:002011-09-29T20:47:44-07:00Bleeding for you<p>I wish I can forget you<br />and never feel deep pain<br />I wish I can bury our memories<br />And never dreaming you<br />I try to hold back my tears<br />Trying so hard to erase you from my black heart<br />But I can’t, I am to weak on you!<br />I just lay here and bleeding for you<br />And waiting to death knock on my door, to take me away<br />Why are you in my dreams?<br />Why can’t you just let me to die into your arms<br />to feel my heart heat<br />but you just leaving me all alone with loneliness</p>Candi RLM2 Outlawhttps://fubar.com/candeh112001noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-329009.11607822011-09-29T20:46:44-07:002011-09-29T20:46:44-07:00Cold heart<p>The night was falling<br />And the stars are show up<br />My heart is still weak and cold<br />I try to defeated with the shadow<br />But I can’t<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span><br />Is this the only way I can find my true love?<br />Sitting here all alone<br />Watching the stars<br />Hoping for the sign<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span><br />The night was falling slowly<br />And the stars are show up<br />And my cold heart still searching for something<br />My lonely soul is lost in the darkness<br />Try to find the way home<br />My fallen angel is lost in my embrace forever<br />I see you in my dreams, dark angel<br />My love is belong only in your dreams<br />There is nothing to do with it<br />I am just shadow<br />Who is always hidden from the light<br />My cold heart still try to find something<br />All this years I cannot find my way home<br />After all this years I only see painful nothing else<br />My cold heart is lost in the shadows, again<br />This tears I cry they are forgotten forever<br />I will never find someone like you<br />I miss you so bad<br />I miss your touch<br />Where are you, my love?<br />I wish you were here with me tonight<br />To share with me love<br />I want to feel you love, again<br />Please, take me away with you<br />To the heaven<br />I want to be with you forever<br />Hold me<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span><br />The night was falling slowly<br />And the stars are show up<br />Here I am<br />Sitting here all alone<br />Waiting for something<br />I lay down here<br />Waiting to death comes for me<br />And then I can find my peace in my heart<br />And go with you to the heaven<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span><br />My cold heart is still inside me<br />I cannot defeat the cold<br />Who is always follow my dreams and my good heart<br />So, my love<br />Bring me to live<br />Moon is slowly wake me up<br />And then in my dreams I feel your cold touch<br />So sweet<br />So cold<br />So tender<br />I am yours<br />Now and forever</p>Candi RLM2 Outlawhttps://fubar.com/candeh112001noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-329009.11607812011-09-29T20:44:03-07:002011-09-29T20:44:03-07:00Freedom<p>Every time I am looking in the mirror<br />I only see myself broken in so many little pieces,<br />And if I try to seek my freedom<br />Will my pain for you, perish away?<br />You bury me with all your lies inside of my heart, long ago<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span><br />Coming closer to my reflection, (I see)<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span><br />One single tear is weeping on my grace<br />Is it good enough to sing my sorrow for you?<br />Is it my love?</p>Candi RLM2 Outlawhttps://fubar.com/candeh112001noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-329009.11517612011-05-29T21:45:13-07:002011-05-29T21:45:13-07:00Entrapment<p><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Hopelessly bound</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> unfettered</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> by the chains of love's grip</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> - greatest gift,</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> fate's cruelest curse.</span><br /> <br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> Wherefore do I weep</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> at knowing the joy,</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> the warmth,</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> at feeling the peace,</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> the fire.</span><br /> <br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> Wherefore do I weep</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> unable to complete ,</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> to be,</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> unknown the kiss,</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> the flames.</span><br /> <br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> Wherefore do I weep</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> at loving not living</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> seeing not touching</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> breathing not sharing</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> holding not loving?</span><br /> <br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> All,</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> because I, The Fool,</span><br /><span style="font-family: comic sans ms,sans-serif; font-size: medium;"> am no more?</span></p>Candi RLM2 Outlawhttps://fubar.com/candeh112001noreply@fubar.com