Jenny's life

just an update....

2012-12-08T17:27:43-08:00

The job market is looking better here now that the F-35's have gotten to MCAS Yuma. I'm still jobless, but I have a better chance now, I think. I've also gotten back in touch with someone I haven't talked to in over 4 years. I'm so excited about this Christmas. I'm doing it for myself this year. It will be difficult without the kids, but I have someone now that will make it a wonderful holiday.

Discouraged

2012-11-14T18:07:46-08:00

OH Daddy, I'm feeling very discouraged today.� I wish you were here to help me.� I don't know what to do and I really need to hear your voice.� It always comforted me and kept me going.� But since you've been gone, I've had to go it alone and it's so hard.� I need you, Daddy.

saw my doc today....

2012-11-09T16:42:56-08:00

He says I'm looking a lot better since my surgery.� I've dropped weight to below 120 and he says I'm looking healthier.� YAY!!!

Now to get my mental state back to the way it was before then.� I'm getting there!!!

for those who have wronged me

2012-10-26T19:44:38-07:00

I have been training in the art of witchcraft, along with my son.� Unless these wrongs have been undone, you will get yours before Halloween is over.� Hmmmmm toad for life?� Maybe a limp dick forever?� We shall see

Hmmmmm it seems to be on now....I have been wronged quite badly and now need to find a good hex.

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going away

2012-10-13T17:33:12-07:00

When I get home from Vegas, I may disappear for a while.� I haven't been taking very good care of myself physically or emotionally.� I'm a horrible mess, no good to anyone right now.�

this great burden

2012-10-09T18:02:11-07:00

I have a huge burden on my shoulders that will never go away.� I will carry it with me until the day I die.� You see, I suffer from depression with anxiety and bipolar disorder.� This is probably the reason I have been single for so long.� I have tried to keep it under control, but the past couple of weeks have been total hell for me.� My gall bladder surgery has knocked my chemicals all out of whack and I am worried the person I have my eye on is just gonna say fuck this and drop me.�� All I ask for is some understanding and support.� It means a great deal to me.

drowning

2012-10-04T20:17:26-07:00

I feel like I'm drowning.� There is too much going on with my emotional state that it's overwhelming me and I'm drowning in it.� How can I keep my head above water when there is just too much going on?� In the middle of my job� and apartment crisis, I have to have emergency surgery to get my gall bladder taken out.� I have been going through all this alone.� I have been trying to stay afloat, but holding it all in has me drowning anyway.� I'm a huge mess, it's a wonder that anyone wants to talk to me, let alone get to know me better.

really stressed out

2012-07-27T19:49:26-07:00

between my grandparents' issues, and my own, I'm really stressed out and having bad anxiety attacks.� It would help if I had some support and help.� Grandpa needs a lot of help and grandma thinks I don't care and that I don't understand what's going on so I get the brunt of her frustration.� How am I supposed to deal with this?� Please, someone help.

back in that dark place

2012-07-19T19:04:23-07:00

I'm back in that dark place again.� Heart broken into millions of pieces.� I just want to be numb, not feel a damn thing for a while.

KARMA

2012-07-01T18:52:21-07:00

In the end, when it comes down to it, karma will get those that have hurt me.