tag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-25792015-02-16T06:31:04-08:00Holy hell back in florida!!A fubar user blog.Kiwichihttps://fubar.com/kiwichi1221noreply@fubar.comfubartag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-2579.12481082015-02-16T06:31:04-08:002015-02-16T06:31:04-08:00let things go<p>I lost a long friends on this site due to stupid reasons. One got upset caused i polished there fupony and i didnt read there status which i didnt see. They blocked me. I was forced to choose sides of friends. I couldnt be friends cause certain people in my fufamily they didnt like. Like some people said. Fubar is just a game. Some people think they are better then others and such. All i want to do is make friends. Not choose sides, I hate doing that. I dont wanna lose anymore friends.</p>Kiwichihttps://fubar.com/kiwichi1221noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-2579.12216692014-06-13T08:24:17-07:002014-06-13T08:24:17-07:00Back to where i started from<p>Trying right now my hardest to raise the money just to get back to california to restart my life where i left off. Cant find any job down here in florida. Its too depressing where i am living at. Cause if i go back. I know ill have a job waiting. Cause i had a job at kmart there and they are willing to take me back. i would give up a lot things just to go back. I would take the 3 day greyhound trip back from florida to northern california. I used to live in eureka in cali. Miss it and my friends there. </p>Kiwichihttps://fubar.com/kiwichi1221noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-2579.12015092013-07-05T10:23:06-07:002013-07-05T10:23:06-07:00broken down<p>After my drinking spree last night. Two bottles of b<span>acardi and shots of rum. I was sitting on the sofa talking to my cousins older son and just broke down in front of him and told him what was on my mind. Like why i was depressed before and such. I cried a lot. Then he went to bed. I went to the bathroom and then felt sick near the sofa. Good thing they left me a bucket. Cause i threw up a lot and then passed out on the floor.</span></p>Kiwichihttps://fubar.com/kiwichi1221noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-2579.11766812012-05-27T19:14:43-07:002012-05-27T19:14:43-07:00Broken arrow<p><span>What do you do when you're stuck, </span><br /><span>Because the one that you love, </span><br /><span>Has pushed you away, </span><br /><span>And you can't deal with the pain? </span><br /><span>And now you're trying to fix me, </span><br /><span>Mend what he did, </span><br /><span>I'll find the piece that i'm missing, </span><br /><span>But I still miss her, </span><br /><span>I miss her, i'm missing her, </span><br /><span>Oh I miss her, I miss her i'm missing her </span><br /><span class="text_exposed_show"><br />And you're sitting in the front row, <br />Wanna be first in line, <br />Waiting by my window, <br />Giving me all your time, <br />You could be my hero, <br />If only I could let go, <br />But her love is still in me, <br />Like a broken arrow. <br /><br />She's the thorn in my flesh <br />That I can't take out <br />She's stealing my breath <br />When you're around, <br />And now you're trying to convince me, <br />She wasn't worth it, <br />But you can't complete me, <br />She's the part that is missing, <br />I miss her, I'm missing her, <br />Oh I miss her I miss her, i'm missing her, <br /><br />And you're sitting in the front row, <br />Wanna be first in line, <br />Waiting by my window, <br />Giving me all your time, <br />You could be my hero, <br />If only I could let go, <br />But her love is still in me, <br />Like a broken arrow. <br />Like a broken arrow. <br /><br />What do you do <br />When your heart's in two places? <br />You feel great but you're torn inside. <br />You feel love but you just can't embrace it, <br />When you found the right one at the wrong time. <br /><br />And you're <br />Sitting in the front row, <br />Wanna be first in line, <br />Waiting by my window, <br />Giving me all your time, <br />You could be my hero, <br />If only I could let go, <br />But his love is still in me, <br />Like a broken arrow.</span></p>Kiwichihttps://fubar.com/kiwichi1221noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-2579.11754562012-05-05T10:36:39-07:002012-05-05T10:36:39-07:00Dont know anymore<p>Right now. My mind is racing. Not the middle of the month and life is messed up again. But due to what something happened last week. I have spent thursday though sunday in jacksonville florida with some friends. One drove five hours to get me to calm me down and try get over this. I am here. 2 years without sleeping good and feeling sick. Finaly slept and feeling a bit better. I just need a new place to call home. Just hope i can find it one day</p>Kiwichihttps://fubar.com/kiwichi1221noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-2579.11720712012-03-11T09:03:36-07:002012-03-11T09:03:36-07:00So trueit's not just the outside...it's the inside too that means the most. some of the most gorgeous, beautiful and best looking people around have proven to be the most ugliest in the world!! beauty really is only skin deep and it runs much deeper than that. real and true beauty lies not only on the outter side but it's in the heart tooKiwichihttps://fubar.com/kiwichi1221noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-2579.11702072012-02-14T08:31:09-08:002012-02-14T08:31:09-08:00Valentines<p><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">Today is Valentines Day</span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">A day to show a love one you care<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">But how can you hold them kiss them console them<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">When no one is even there<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">Today is a day of us together<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">And not a second to be left apart</span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">But knowing today won't bring those things<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">It continues to break my heart<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">I know I'm supposed to be happy<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">And I really look the part<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">But how can I smile<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">And pretend that I'm happy<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">When a piece is missing from my heart<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">Today won't change the crying<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">Today won't change pain<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">Today won't change the fact<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">That heartache is now a part of my name<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">Today for me is lonely</span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">Today for me is untrue<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">Today for me is wishing<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">That once again I still had you</span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">But wishes are like fairy tales<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">They rarely do come true<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">So today is a day of loneliness<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">And me being sad and blue<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">Today for you is laughing<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">Because to you my love is a game<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">So while your happy spending time with friends<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">I'm left to drown in pain<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">Today is not a day anymore<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">Its a waste of useless time<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">Today for me is</span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">Loneliness, heartache, crying, praying<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><br style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; display: inline ! important; float: none;">That soon again you'd be mine</span><span style="color: #000000; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px; background-color: #ffffff; padding: 0px; margin: 0px;"><br style="padding: 0px; margin: 0px;" /><span class="Apple-converted-space"> <br /></span></span></p>Kiwichihttps://fubar.com/kiwichi1221noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-2579.11682902012-01-16T09:06:40-08:002012-01-16T09:06:40-08:00From the heart<p>All the things i used to do</p>
<p>Dont seem to mean much anymore</p>
<p>Every face and every place</p>
<p>Were lost along the way</p>
<p>Im sitting here all by mysrelf</p>
<p>Looking in the mirror</p>
<p>Holding a old photograph</p>
<p>Oh how it used to be</p>
<p>Everything comes from the heart</p>
<p>I believe that its true</p>
<p>Time changes pride from the heart</p>
<p>its all from the heart</p>
<p>all the words i used to say</p>
<p>Dont mean much anymore</p>
<p>Every hurt and every word</p>
<p>Were bought along the way</p>
<p>Im sitting here all by myself</p>
<p>Looking out the window</p>
<p>Im playing a old record</p>
<p>The same old melody</p>
<p>Every word comes from the heart</p>
<p>I believe that its true</p>
<p>Times mends each hurt from the heart</p>
<p>its all from the heart</p>
<p>theres no need to hide inside</p>
<p>The old world anymore</p>
<p>Youre standing here right next to me</p>
<p>I turn to you and smile</p>
<p>Love it begins from the heart</p>
<p>I believe its true</p>
<p>Time mends each hurt from the heart</p>
<p>I believe its true</p>
<p>Every word comes from the heart</p>
<p>I believe its true</p>Kiwichihttps://fubar.com/kiwichi1221noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-2579.11630182011-10-31T09:41:51-07:002011-10-31T09:41:51-07:00Ghost chantTo see spirits, old European grimoires
recommend mixing together aloe,
pepper, musk, Vervain, and saffron
and burning this in a cemetery. You
can adapt this for other locations (like
those in which the spirit lived) by
adding a bit of sweet grass or tobacco
to a specially prepared incense.
Create the incense on the anniversary
of the death of the individual you wish
to contact.
This is then burned at 11 am, in the
safety of a magic circle that also holds
symbolic items to connect you to the
entity. An incantation to encourage
the spirit's presence is
"Guardians of the Spirit realm, hear
and guide my plea.
When the witching hour rings true,
bring my friend (loved one, etc.) ____
to me.
Other souls who hear my call are not
welcome in this place.
Only the one known as _____ may
enter sacred space."
Repeat the request three times, twenty
minutes apart, then wait quietly for
indications of
a presence.
Signs include the scent of flowers or a
favored cologne, a cool wind,
movement of curtains, and candles
going out or twitching erratically.
Once you feel sure the spirit is with
you, do not make it tarry overly long.
Take care of your business, say
farewell, and thank the guardians for
their assistance.Kiwichihttps://fubar.com/kiwichi1221noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-2579.11589342011-09-01T17:36:43-07:002011-09-01T17:36:43-07:00We all die young. Wasted my soul, test my life
For my bread
Spend my time lost in space
Am I dead?
Oh let the river flow
Through my callused hands
And take me from my own
The eyes of the damned
It makes my stomach turn
And it tears my flesh from bone
How we turn a dream to stone
And we all die young
Oh, Tell me I know
I lived so afraid
And still we cry alone
With words left unsaid
We all die young.
Kiwichihttps://fubar.com/kiwichi1221noreply@fubar.com