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2008-06-13T14:24:59-07:00
sanity is over rated
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2008-06-13T14:24:59-07:00
2008-06-13T14:24:59-07:00
I'm completely feeling these songs
-Eyes of the Devil by Seether-
It irks me when i get burned
And i realize, i don't get hurt
And always, it seems I've lost my way
When i feel you, it's not enough
And i need you to shun my touch
I notice the season's ripe for change
I'm weak
I'm weak
So with every new lesson learned
I could keep you before it turns
And the knowledge that things won't be the same
Now i realize that you have won
And there's nothing to be said or done
And i notice the wind won't blow my way
So run with the eyes of the devil
And keep them in your dreams
If you succumb to the lies of the rebel
You'll cleanse yourself of me
It kills me to watch this fade
And i realize it's all charade
And every mistake i make is the same
I beseech you to let me drown
Will it please you to let me down
And no one can save me from the pain
So run with the eyes of the devil
And keep them in your dreams
If you succumb to the lies of the rebel
You'll cleanse yourself of me [x3]
Jesus, save me! (I'm weak) [x5]
Jesus, save me from me
-Who Wants to Live Forever by Queen-
Theres no time for us
Theres no place for us
What is this thing that builds our dreams yet slips away
From us
Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever....?
Theres no chance for us
Its all decided for us
This world has only one sweet moment set aside for us
Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever?
Who dares to love forever?
When love must die
But touch my tears with your lips
Touch my world with your fingertips
And we can have forever
And we can love forever
Forever is our today
Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever?
Forever is our today
Who waits forever anyway?
P.S.~ Yeah, I un-fanned everyone. Nothing personal just.. it looked weird with only 3 haha
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2008-06-10T11:27:28-07:00
2008-06-10T11:27:28-07:00
It's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life for me... and i'm feelin' good
The summary for this blog is: I WIN!!!!
I am FINALLY absolutely, positively over this Michael shit! I'm done, just 1000000000% DONE! I don't even care. I just.. don't care.
I'm on the road to recovery, yet again, and just... I'm better. My life is finally back on track. I feel great, and just... everything is good.
I'm finally ready to move on and I have random respect for myself now so... I don't know what that means yet but shit is gonna change. so.. YAY ME *pats self on back*
So yeah... woo-hoo!I start going to TNCC (Thomas Nelson Community College for those who don't know) in August, hopefully if I get Finacial Aid. And just... things are finally going good.
And I am fine again,
~Lisa
P.S.~ I just read this blog and then the last one... I SWEAR I'M NOT BI-POLAR lol
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2008-05-31T07:12:22-07:00
2008-05-31T07:12:22-07:00
OK I apparently LIED
If you want to know what I lied about, check my blog entry "Cleansing and Purging" I lied about the sobriety thing. I've fallen back on old habits. In fact, a friend of mine sorta described what i'm doing... so here's what he said, that was extremely insightful... "You give and you give… you do all and give all to the best of your abilities and knowledge and yet its not enough… and so all you do is Fuck and Hope that it is enough…" It's sad but true. Anyways, I apparently cannot stop being bitter. really all i want is for one guy to prove to me that they're not all the same. Anyways... this has been a bad day. And i've only been up for two hours. ugh *head desks*
I cannot run away, fading slowly,
~Lisa
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2008-03-05T12:30:46-08:00
2008-03-05T12:30:46-08:00
New Song -Atlas-
You told me you’d always be there
That I could run to you anytime, anywhere
Now you’re asking me not to hate you
Cause I’m too much for you to bear
Nobody’s perfect
I think you’re the best example of that
Forgive me
I never knew
What a burden you must hold
Your back is breaking
From the weight of the world
Cutting all the ties
That bound you to humanity
No longer care about anyone but yourself
Letting me go to destroy myself
Never meant to be a burden on you
Forgive me
I almost forgot
Your back is breaking
From the weight of the world
Now I know
Exactly where I stand
Set all your priorities
And I’m one rung lower on the ladder
You’re asking me not to hate you
Cause I’m too much for you to bear
I don’t need you’re forgiveness
You won’t let anyone forget
Your back is breaking
From the weight of the world
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A/N~ first off steal it and you will pay. second this is about a song i heard that hit me the wrong way. it was about a guy leaving a girl cause she's got too many problems. which i've been through before. and in case you dont' know it's called Atlas because in Greek mythology Atlas was the guy who held the world on his shoulders.
Enough about that. now time for some shameless self promotion. if you like this visit my deviantart site..... http://www.ultimaterockgoddess.deviantart.com
I post everything there. From photos to songs to stories to banners and collages i make. so yeah go there and appriceate my art lol
Tell me not to worry,
~Lisa
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2008-02-03T12:05:02-08:00
2008-02-03T12:05:02-08:00
Another great song!!!! YAY Chaotica
Unstable
Lyrics © 2006 by CHAOTICA
www.chaoticamusic.com
Gotta run
Gotta run
'Til I fall,
Gotta keep on
Feeding the crave.
Gotta build
Gotta build
Up my wall,
Gonna keep on
Digging my grave.
Gotta fight
Gotta fight
'Til I bleed,
Gotta keep my head
Screwed on tight.
Gotta stay
Gotta stay
In the lead,
Gotta make sure
I win this fight.
It's okay if I'm
A bit unstable,
I've been doing
Just fine on my own.
I don't care if I am
In denial,
It's a mild syndrome.
Gotta deal
Gotta deal
With the pain,
Gotta put up
With all the lies.
Gotta break
Gotta break
Off the chain,
Gotta silence
All of the cries.
Gonna lose
Gonna lose
My own head,
Gonna finally
Run out of luck.
Gonna fall
Gonna fall
'Til I'm dead -
And frankly,
I don't give a...
The more I try,
The less I'm free.
The more I fail,
The more I hate me.
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2008-02-02T11:15:32-08:00
2008-02-02T11:15:32-08:00
New Song -Opiate-
Everything is hazy
Nothing seems right
Sedated and cold
You'll believe what they tell you
Focus on the next life
To forget the present
Sit tight and bide your time
So tired that you'll never think of a revolution
Come on
Wake up
Don't be another sheep in the flock
Come on
Wake up
Be one in a million not a milllion and one
Come on
Wake up
See what's in front of your eyes
Come on
Wake up
Are you proud of what you've done?
Turned your leader into a god
Total control over your mind
Rewrote your history
Made you forget
Worse off than you were at the start
Focus on the next life
To forget the present
Sit tight and bide your time
So tired you'll never think of a revolution
Come on
Wake up
Don't be another sheep in the flock
Come on
Wake up
Be one in a million not a milllion and one
Come on
Wake up
See what's in front of your eyes
Come on
Wake up
Get your nose out of that holy book
Open your eyes
Fight for freedom
Come on
Wake up
(whispered) Religon is the opiate of the masses
Come on
Wake up
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A/N- Ok well. If you didn't guess this is sort of about communism, it was sparked by our discussion in English about Animal Farm and Karl Marx saying "Religon is the opiate of the masses" So yeah... well there ya go
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2008-01-28T09:27:56-08:00
2008-01-28T09:27:56-08:00
Cleansing and Purging
2008, a beginning of a new year. I've quit drinking and all of my other vices. It's hard as shit but, I've got to do it. I'm starting this year with a clean slate.
I've forgiven all of those that have hurt me in the past, but not forgotten the lessons it's taught. I'm tired of all the high school drama shit, especially with people that aren't even in high school anymore.
I'm tired of being that immature brat. I've always been more mature for my age but in some ways... I'm a normal teenager. So I've quit that shit. I've quit being that juvenile and trying to quit being so vindictive.
It's just time to grow the fuck up and get on with my life. I know I'll have little slips, cause recovery is a life long journey, not a destination. I'm trying this year with a whole new attitude, going with the flow. I've quit trying to fight every little thing just for the sake of arguing.
So anyone that I've been an immature brat to, I apologize and it'll never happen again. Anyone that I've broken a promise to, I'm working on keeping my word better (I normally do so no problem with that). And anyone that's hurt me, I forgive you.
If I start being a bitch or going back to my old ways, call me out on it. I'm tired of being able to get away with that shit. I mean just... I'm tired of people just accepting me as a screw up.
I guess the point of this is that I'm no longer the girl I was. I'm trying this whole "bettering myself" thing. And just to be patient with me and don't give up on me.
I’m forced to let go,
~Lisa
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2008-01-28T09:01:34-08:00
2008-01-28T09:01:34-08:00
Can't believe this song made me cry
Sixx:A.M.
Accidents Can Happen
Don't give up, it takes a while
I have seen this look before
And it's alright
You're not alone
If you don't love this anymore
I hear that you've slipped again
I'm here 'cause I know you'll need a friend
And you know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.
Take some time and learn to breathe
And remember what it means
To feel alive
And to believe
Something more than what you see
I know there's a price for this
But some things in life you must resist
And you know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.
I hear that you've slipped again
I'm here 'cause I know you'll need a friend
And you know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.
You know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.
So don't give up
It takes a while.
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God I only wish someone cared that much. I love Sixx:A.M. but how dare they make me cry lol. I was driving home from dropping off my brother and stopping by a friend's house really quick to give her something she left at my house and, I still think the goddess was trying to send me a message, so at least i know she cares, but anyway i was driving home thinking about how good a drink would be and that I should drink w/e I could find and then BAM! F.M. 99 (a local radio station) decides to play that song. WHAT THE HELL! So I started bawling my eyes out. What the fuck man? Anyways. I think I'll go now. toodles
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2008-01-27T12:12:10-08:00
2008-01-27T12:12:10-08:00
Another fav song
Within Temptation - What Have You Done
What have you done now?
I know I better stop trying
You know that there's no denying
I won't show mercy on you now
I know I should stop beleiving
I know that there's no retreating
It's over now
What have you done?
What have you done now?
I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
(what have you done now?)
Why? Why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you
What have you done?
Would you mind if I killed you?
Would you mind if I tryed to cause you have
Turned into my worst enemy?
You carry hate that I feel
It's over now
What have you done?
What have you done now?
I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
(what have you done now?)
Why? why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you
What have you done?
I've been fool
Won't let it go
We will be free when it ends
I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
(what have you done now?)
Why? why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you
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2008-01-27T11:09:06-08:00
2008-01-27T11:09:06-08:00
I am Jack's favorite song (at the moment)
Frozen
by Within Temptation
I can’t feel my senses
I just feel the cold
All colors seem to fade away
I can’t reach my soul
I would stop running, If knew there was a chance
It tears me apart to sacrifice it all but I’m forced to let go
Tell me I’m frozen but what can I do?
Can’t tell the reasons I did it for you
When lies turn into truth I sacrificed for you
You say that I’m frozen but what can I do?
I can feel your sorrow
You won’t forgive me,
but I know you’ll be all right
It tears me apart that you will never know but I have to let go
Tell me I’m frozen but what can I do?
Can’t tell the reasons I did it for you
When lies turn into truth I sacrificed for you
You say that I’m frozen but what can I do?
Everything will slip way
Shattered peaces will remain
When memories fade into emptiness
Only time will tell its tale
If it all has been in vain
I can’t feel my senses
I just feel the cold
Frozen...
But what can I do ?
Frozen...
Tell me I’m frozen but what can I do?
Can’t tell the reasons I did it for you
When lies turn into truth I sacrificed for you
You say that I’m frozen, frozen...
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